I am in such a blogging funk. So bad that I'm afraid if I don't blog about SOMETHING... ANYTHING!! that I'll stop all together. Which I know I would regret. So I'm taking the easy way out. I'm justifying it by using this as a good way to let some of my newer followers learn a little more about me :)
My next 30 days will go a little something like this:
Day 0: The 30 Day Challenge Explanation and Description
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite ALL TIME Picture of yourself. Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Movie
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge
Exciting huh? Stay tuned!
March 31, 2011
March 27, 2011
While the husband's away..
... always remember..
1. Don't run the dishwasher right before you go to bed. It makes scary noises and you'll be convinced that someone is breaking in your back door.
2. It's totally okay to give your baby Tylenol every night. I mean.. he's probably teething anyways, so you're really helping him out. Plus, you deserve those few hours to yourself before bed time.
3. It's also okay to keep the kitchen light on all night so the boogy man doesn't come out. (kitchen is right outside of our bedroom.)
4. Make lots of plans. It makes the days go by faster. If you have to split up Target and Costco trips into separate days to make sure you have at least one thing to get you out of the house each day.. that's cool.
5. You'll probably be thankful for the fact that you don't have to make dinner (we're talking short trips to the field here.. I know that's something you start to miss if they are gone for long periods of time) every night.
6. Don't feel guilty that you are enjoying a little time to yourself for the first time in... 7 months. You'll miss his company by night 3 anyways.
I have been spoiled by the Army so far in our time, and haven't had to deal with "field trips" since his training days. That came to an end last week as he left me as a single mama for the week. I forgot about little things like those above! I have a feeling I will learn even more about this over the next year! But it does make me enjoy our time together even more so... this was a great weekend together and I loved every second of it :)
1. Don't run the dishwasher right before you go to bed. It makes scary noises and you'll be convinced that someone is breaking in your back door.
2. It's totally okay to give your baby Tylenol every night. I mean.. he's probably teething anyways, so you're really helping him out. Plus, you deserve those few hours to yourself before bed time.
3. It's also okay to keep the kitchen light on all night so the boogy man doesn't come out. (kitchen is right outside of our bedroom.)
4. Make lots of plans. It makes the days go by faster. If you have to split up Target and Costco trips into separate days to make sure you have at least one thing to get you out of the house each day.. that's cool.
5. You'll probably be thankful for the fact that you don't have to make dinner (we're talking short trips to the field here.. I know that's something you start to miss if they are gone for long periods of time) every night.
6. Don't feel guilty that you are enjoying a little time to yourself for the first time in... 7 months. You'll miss his company by night 3 anyways.
I have been spoiled by the Army so far in our time, and haven't had to deal with "field trips" since his training days. That came to an end last week as he left me as a single mama for the week. I forgot about little things like those above! I have a feeling I will learn even more about this over the next year! But it does make me enjoy our time together even more so... this was a great weekend together and I loved every second of it :)
March 24, 2011
Trip home - Part 3
Friday started the craziness of wedding preparation! We did all of the normal wedding weekend activities: nails done at the salon, a quick lunch and dressing up, rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. The rehearsal started at three and was at the country club. The same country club that Trey and I were married at, so it was very reminiscent for me. Especially because he couldn't be there.. it made me a little sad. But joyful at the same time. It was nice to relive that. Oh, yes, that was an important factor wasn't it? Trey wasn't able to make his little sister's wedding. Army.. I'll leave it at that. It was heart breaking.
Everything went really well. I would say the only part that was not so wonderful was being around Trey's biological mother and figuring out how to interact with her. Long, awful story that I won't get into out of respect for my husband and his family, but basically, he doesn't have much of a relationship with her. AT ALL. Not a good one at the very least. And he has very legit reasoning for not having a relationship with her all of which I have heard about and have seen the ramifications for her actions all throughout the 8 and 1/2 years that I have been with him. Soo.. it's hard for me to socialize with her. I've only seen her like 3 or 4 times at most since I've known him. It was incredibly awkward. It was the first time she saw Andrew and was very very awkward with him (I'll probably say that word 100 more times in this paragraph.. there's just no other word to use). I don't think she every really spoke to him.. she would just come up to us (well.. once) and stare at him. Awkward. At some points I felt rude.. but I really didn't know how to handle the situation. Trey said he would have been the same way.. but all in all.. it was awkward.
The ceremony was beautiful and I wish I had pictures to post, but the only ones I've seen are all from the professionals and I don't know if I should post those or not. They did an amazing job with the pictures btw! The reception was pretty short, but we had a great time out on the dance floor!
She made the most beautiful bride! I slept real well that night!!
After the wedding, my trip was coming to an end, but we made the most out of the rest of it.
Drew spent the night with Trey's family on Sunday. I know they loved getting the one on one time with him and I enjoyed a night off. Win win for all! Oh yeah.. before I dropped him off we went to one of my best friends Emily's daughter's (Reece.. did you get that??) 1st birthday party. I was so thankful to be home for that! We have betrothed them together and they seem to be okay with that :)
There's Ashleigh in the picture above :) She is expecting little Madison in July and we can't wait to meet her! Her and Matthew (her husband and Trey's long time bff) came over my parents house that night for dinner. I'm so glad that I got to spend a good amount of time with her. Well considering the busy schedule!
Saying goodbye (or "see you later") to my parents was more difficult than it normally would be. Every time that I've visited so far, I've already had another trip planned. It was easy to say, see you in this many months! Not this time though. It's expensive to fly out of El Paso. And it takes a lot to pack up Andrew's life and have him readjust. So, I'm not sure when the next time I'll be back is. That made it very hard to walk away from them. I swear, no matter how much I start to enjoy El Paso and appreciate the life Trey and I have made for ourselves, it NEVER gets easier. Not even a tad. I love my parents so much and despise being away from them. Can't we just move a little closer Army, pretty please??
Everything went really well. I would say the only part that was not so wonderful was being around Trey's biological mother and figuring out how to interact with her. Long, awful story that I won't get into out of respect for my husband and his family, but basically, he doesn't have much of a relationship with her. AT ALL. Not a good one at the very least. And he has very legit reasoning for not having a relationship with her all of which I have heard about and have seen the ramifications for her actions all throughout the 8 and 1/2 years that I have been with him. Soo.. it's hard for me to socialize with her. I've only seen her like 3 or 4 times at most since I've known him. It was incredibly awkward. It was the first time she saw Andrew and was very very awkward with him (I'll probably say that word 100 more times in this paragraph.. there's just no other word to use). I don't think she every really spoke to him.. she would just come up to us (well.. once) and stare at him. Awkward. At some points I felt rude.. but I really didn't know how to handle the situation. Trey said he would have been the same way.. but all in all.. it was awkward.
The ceremony was beautiful and I wish I had pictures to post, but the only ones I've seen are all from the professionals and I don't know if I should post those or not. They did an amazing job with the pictures btw! The reception was pretty short, but we had a great time out on the dance floor!
After the wedding, my trip was coming to an end, but we made the most out of the rest of it.
Drew spent the night with Trey's family on Sunday. I know they loved getting the one on one time with him and I enjoyed a night off. Win win for all! Oh yeah.. before I dropped him off we went to one of my best friends Emily's daughter's (Reece.. did you get that??) 1st birthday party. I was so thankful to be home for that! We have betrothed them together and they seem to be okay with that :)
Saying goodbye (or "see you later") to my parents was more difficult than it normally would be. Every time that I've visited so far, I've already had another trip planned. It was easy to say, see you in this many months! Not this time though. It's expensive to fly out of El Paso. And it takes a lot to pack up Andrew's life and have him readjust. So, I'm not sure when the next time I'll be back is. That made it very hard to walk away from them. I swear, no matter how much I start to enjoy El Paso and appreciate the life Trey and I have made for ourselves, it NEVER gets easier. Not even a tad. I love my parents so much and despise being away from them. Can't we just move a little closer Army, pretty please??
March 23, 2011
Trip home - Part 2
The day after we got home from the bachelorette party (Monday) was my 28th (gasp!) birthday. Really, I'm not afraid of my 30's. I'm actually really, really looking forward to them. I think I'm going to ROCK that decade. So keep 'em coming!
I spent the day with Andrew, of course, and my cousin Katelyn. She goes to school at USC and was on spring break so she was able to spend the majority of the week with us. We were out and about most of the day. We took Drew to Trey's parents house. I knew that they would be on their lunch break and wanted Debby's parents to meet him. They hadn't seen him yet, so I was excited to bring him over. After spending a little time with them, we headed downtown to Cupcake :) It may have been the best part of my day. I had a blueberry cupcake with lemon frosting. Ohh myyy gosshhh! I'm salivating a little just thinking about it. Thanks for the little treat, Kate!
That night we had all of Trey's family over for a delicious dinner. The house was crowded, but I love having everyone together in one place! We ate, had dessert, and opened a few presents. Trey's parents got me a little Patriots charm for my wine glass and a Patriots necklace. Really? I was surprised. They always give me a hard time about being a fan, so that was sweet! My parents got me a ... wait for it... KINDLE!!!. So So So excited! I'm in love. Melissa got me a new (desperately needed) pair of Rainbows. *Trey had a few little gifts for me when I got home as well, a nice salt a pepper grinder - it's okay girls, I really wanted those!! - and a gift card to Amazon. He must of been in cahoots with my mum* I'd say I made out like a bandit this year. I never expect much for my birthday, so that was all a nice surprise!
Over the next few days I stayed busy with helping Melissa get ready for her big day. She did everything herself so there was a lot of work to do!
Wednesday my Aunt Kathy and Uncle Ronnie flew into town. Oh yeah, I didn't mention? Or maybe I did.. anyways.. in the mix of all of this, family from Massachusetts came down for a visit. Tons of fun! I was really looking forward to seeing my Uncle. He's the one that was diagnosed with a brain tumor over the fall. (he is doing okay. He's been through radiation and chemo, and it's not spreading, but it's also not gone either) I'm so glad that he got to meet Drew since we missed our chance over Christmas.
From that moment on, everytime he looked at Uncle Ronnie for the rest of the week, he would just start smiling and sometimes laughing. I guess he is just as fond of him as I am!
Here he is playing with his Great Auntie Carol and getting some life lessons, I'm sure, from Uncle Dennis. They were so great with him!
The next day Auntie Lynda came in and showed Drew his first Redsox game! She's a bit of a fanatic. A female version of Fever Pitch if you will.
And until that coming up weekend, this was the gist of my trip. It was laid back, spent with family that I hardly get to see and I loved every single minute of it. We have always been such a close family and I never want that to change with the upcoming generations. We are, however, spread out a little more throughout the country (Massachusetts, SC, Texas, Oregon, and California) so it's a little more difficult.. I treasure the moments like that week!
I spent the day with Andrew, of course, and my cousin Katelyn. She goes to school at USC and was on spring break so she was able to spend the majority of the week with us. We were out and about most of the day. We took Drew to Trey's parents house. I knew that they would be on their lunch break and wanted Debby's parents to meet him. They hadn't seen him yet, so I was excited to bring him over. After spending a little time with them, we headed downtown to Cupcake :) It may have been the best part of my day. I had a blueberry cupcake with lemon frosting. Ohh myyy gosshhh! I'm salivating a little just thinking about it. Thanks for the little treat, Kate!
That night we had all of Trey's family over for a delicious dinner. The house was crowded, but I love having everyone together in one place! We ate, had dessert, and opened a few presents. Trey's parents got me a little Patriots charm for my wine glass and a Patriots necklace. Really? I was surprised. They always give me a hard time about being a fan, so that was sweet! My parents got me a ... wait for it... KINDLE!!!. So So So excited! I'm in love. Melissa got me a new (desperately needed) pair of Rainbows. *Trey had a few little gifts for me when I got home as well, a nice salt a pepper grinder - it's okay girls, I really wanted those!! - and a gift card to Amazon. He must of been in cahoots with my mum* I'd say I made out like a bandit this year. I never expect much for my birthday, so that was all a nice surprise!
Over the next few days I stayed busy with helping Melissa get ready for her big day. She did everything herself so there was a lot of work to do!
Wednesday my Aunt Kathy and Uncle Ronnie flew into town. Oh yeah, I didn't mention? Or maybe I did.. anyways.. in the mix of all of this, family from Massachusetts came down for a visit. Tons of fun! I was really looking forward to seeing my Uncle. He's the one that was diagnosed with a brain tumor over the fall. (he is doing okay. He's been through radiation and chemo, and it's not spreading, but it's also not gone either) I'm so glad that he got to meet Drew since we missed our chance over Christmas.
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| checking each other out |
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| Looks like Drew approves :) |
Here he is playing with his Great Auntie Carol and getting some life lessons, I'm sure, from Uncle Dennis. They were so great with him!
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| Up to no good, I'm sure! |
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| She even got him his first Redsox onesie |
March 22, 2011
Trip home - Part 1
After a long day of flying, I was exhausted! We landed in Charlotte around 830pm and my parents were there to meet us. My mum couldn't get her hands on Andrew quick enough. We had to remind her to walk through the airport. If we weren't there to guide her, I think she would have stayed in that moment forever.
So, Friday was bachelorette weekend. Myself, Melissa (THA Bride), and 5 other girls headed down to Savannah, Georgia for a classic girls weekend. This is now my new favorite city. Not only is it just the most beautiful place I've been to in a very long time (put it into perspective.. I've been around nothing but Army bases for the past 2 years) but what sealed the deal was when I realized you can walk the streets with alcoholic drinks. You should have seen my reaction when the bartender asked if I wanted my Mich Ultra for here or to go at 11 in the morning.. don't judge.. remember.. we were celebrating!
Our hotel was gorgeous!! We stayed right on the Savannah River in the historic, downtown district. We didn't have to get in our cars at all over the weekend.
The first night there we stayed in and did a surprise lingerie shower for Mel. While meandering through the hotel, trying to find the patio bar on the roof, we instead found a women laying in the hallway of the hotel sans pants. Thong only. Imagine our surprise. After we got over our giggling, immature 13 year old selves, we realized we couldn't leave her like that and covered her up in a robe. Because we had one on hand. After getting nowhere with her incoherent self, we got some help and got her to her room. The story is much more detailed and hilarious, but we'd be here all day. I will say that the next morning we got in the elevator with her and she had no clue. I think we were all red from holding in our laughter.
Saturday we got up and started walking the streets in our adorable t-shirts and found this man with no t-shirt. Yum-O.
I was very excited to come home and see that precious face, but it was very anti-climatic. I called his name multiple times when I came through the door and got nothing. Not even a sideways glance. It's true. We have it on video.
More to come throughout the week!
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| Hottest Grandmother on the block, no? |
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| Walking to brunch Sunday morning.. gorgeous trees! |
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| Our first to-go beer! |
Our hotel was gorgeous!! We stayed right on the Savannah River in the historic, downtown district. We didn't have to get in our cars at all over the weekend.
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| The inside of our hotel |
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| View of the river from our balcony |
Saturday we got up and started walking the streets in our adorable t-shirts and found this man with no t-shirt. Yum-O.
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| Sweet Irish abs. |
By 3:00 some of us (those who can't hang quite as well) needed a nap. Took nap.. hours passed.. then we all got dolled up in our little black dresses to go out for the night. Fun. I won't be putting any pics up of that mess. I kid. We all looked amazing, but I don't have any decent pictures!
While I was away having a much needed weekend with the girls, Drew was having the time of his life with my family. I'm actually not sure who had more fun - him or them.
I was very excited to come home and see that precious face, but it was very anti-climatic. I called his name multiple times when I came through the door and got nothing. Not even a sideways glance. It's true. We have it on video.
More to come throughout the week!
March 21, 2011
Flying with a baby
Is not very fun. But it is doable.
We flew with Drew when he was 4 months. Key word..WE. I had help. It was chaotic enough with the two of us. To say I was a little nervous about flying with him this time.. alone.. is an understatement.
It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be though. Turns out - people are very friendly and helpful. And encouraging. See.. most people have been there. They can empathize. Each and every time I had to drop my purse, unfold the stroller, lock it up and get all my crap back together all while holding a baby (4 times btw.. before getting onto each plane) I was offered help by someone as they passed by. For the record - I never needed their help. I am Mother, hear me ROAR :) When he would go through his fussy periods on the plane - one of the flights is almost 4 hours, fussiness happens - there was always someone willing to play peek-a-boo or make silly faces. And getting off the place, sometimes a kind soul would stop and tell me what a wonderful baby he was, which never fails to make my heart smile.
In Drew's *almost* 7 short months of life he has been on 8 planes, so I consider myself somewhat of an expert. Or at least getting there. Lucky you... now I will share my expert tips:
*If your baby is formula fed, they have little packs of formula that look like the Crystal Light packs you dump in your water. Buy them. If you breastfeed I am clearly no help. Just hope that you are not as modest as I am. Those planes don't have much space!
*If the babe is at the stage where they are eating solids - buy 1 or 2 of those food pouches. Squeeze it right into their mouth.. no spoons or mess necessary.
*Make sure you have all of the extra necessities handy. Poop doesn't wait for the plane to land and sometimes - ahem - it will be a horrendous one and it will seep through his clothes and onto yours just as the seat belt sign comes on and the plane is starting it's descent.
*Give him/her a bottle for take off and landing. They can't chew gum.. swallowing helps their cute little ears.
*And mostly - just go with the flow. There is only so much you can do to comfort your baby on a plane. Have toys, be willing to make silly sounds and faces, walk the aisle.. all of that helps. But sometimes they are just going to cry. What'r ya gonna do?
We made it through and ya know what? The look on my parents faces when we spotted each other through the crowd and they saw their precious grandson... I'll fly 100 days straight to see that sweet moment again.
In other, totally unrelated, but important still news:
We had his appointment with the Pediatric Ophthalmologist Friday morning. She is under the impression that everything is fine for now. She is very sure that the difference in the size of his pupils is physiological. She is not convinced that he is blind in his left eye, but probably just doesn't see as well. Nothing they can do at this point. She gave me trouble signs to watch out for and wants to see him again in a year.
He also rolled over from his back to belly for the first time. I was getting worried, not gonna lie. He's been rolling the opposite way from 4 months. Nonetheless.. We have ourselves a full blown roller! Let the fun begin :)
We flew with Drew when he was 4 months. Key word..WE. I had help. It was chaotic enough with the two of us. To say I was a little nervous about flying with him this time.. alone.. is an understatement.
It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be though. Turns out - people are very friendly and helpful. And encouraging. See.. most people have been there. They can empathize. Each and every time I had to drop my purse, unfold the stroller, lock it up and get all my crap back together all while holding a baby (4 times btw.. before getting onto each plane) I was offered help by someone as they passed by. For the record - I never needed their help. I am Mother, hear me ROAR :) When he would go through his fussy periods on the plane - one of the flights is almost 4 hours, fussiness happens - there was always someone willing to play peek-a-boo or make silly faces. And getting off the place, sometimes a kind soul would stop and tell me what a wonderful baby he was, which never fails to make my heart smile.
In Drew's *almost* 7 short months of life he has been on 8 planes, so I consider myself somewhat of an expert. Or at least getting there. Lucky you... now I will share my expert tips:
*If your baby is formula fed, they have little packs of formula that look like the Crystal Light packs you dump in your water. Buy them. If you breastfeed I am clearly no help. Just hope that you are not as modest as I am. Those planes don't have much space!
*If the babe is at the stage where they are eating solids - buy 1 or 2 of those food pouches. Squeeze it right into their mouth.. no spoons or mess necessary.
*Make sure you have all of the extra necessities handy. Poop doesn't wait for the plane to land and sometimes - ahem - it will be a horrendous one and it will seep through his clothes and onto yours just as the seat belt sign comes on and the plane is starting it's descent.
*Give him/her a bottle for take off and landing. They can't chew gum.. swallowing helps their cute little ears.
*And mostly - just go with the flow. There is only so much you can do to comfort your baby on a plane. Have toys, be willing to make silly sounds and faces, walk the aisle.. all of that helps. But sometimes they are just going to cry. What'r ya gonna do?
We made it through and ya know what? The look on my parents faces when we spotted each other through the crowd and they saw their precious grandson... I'll fly 100 days straight to see that sweet moment again.
In other, totally unrelated, but important still news:
We had his appointment with the Pediatric Ophthalmologist Friday morning. She is under the impression that everything is fine for now. She is very sure that the difference in the size of his pupils is physiological. She is not convinced that he is blind in his left eye, but probably just doesn't see as well. Nothing they can do at this point. She gave me trouble signs to watch out for and wants to see him again in a year.
He also rolled over from his back to belly for the first time. I was getting worried, not gonna lie. He's been rolling the opposite way from 4 months. Nonetheless.. We have ourselves a full blown roller! Let the fun begin :)
March 14, 2011
A quick hello!
I know that I have been MIA and this won't be a long post, but just wanted to say, "heyyyy y'all"! I've finally caught up on blogs in the little bit of spare time that I've had and feel good that I've kept up with you all.
I'm having a great time and plan to make the most out of the last day and 1/2 that I have with family.
While walking around in Savannah 2 weekends ago, we came across a store that has a lady that sits in the window and writes on a typewriter. She takes suggestions to "cure her writers block" and has a few samples of her writing below where she sits.
I fell in love with this short little blurb and have been sharing it with everyone I think of, so naturally I have to share it with you all! I wish I knew her name to give her credit, but she signs it all, " - the writer in the window". Here you go.. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did :)
Q: When will I find the man of my dreams?
A: When you become the woman of yours.
That made my heart smile to absolutely no end!
Thank you Writer in the Window.
I'm having a great time and plan to make the most out of the last day and 1/2 that I have with family.
While walking around in Savannah 2 weekends ago, we came across a store that has a lady that sits in the window and writes on a typewriter. She takes suggestions to "cure her writers block" and has a few samples of her writing below where she sits.
I fell in love with this short little blurb and have been sharing it with everyone I think of, so naturally I have to share it with you all! I wish I knew her name to give her credit, but she signs it all, " - the writer in the window". Here you go.. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did :)
Q: When will I find the man of my dreams?
A: When you become the woman of yours.
That made my heart smile to absolutely no end!
Thank you Writer in the Window.
March 1, 2011
~ 6 Months ~
Drew baby - how is it even remotely possible that we've had your sweet little self with us for a whole half of a year??? Time needs to just slow right down right this instant!
You had your 6-month appointment yesterday so let's get straight to your stats:
You continue to warm our hearts and make us love more than we knew we were capable of doing. You really are my pride and joy! We love you to infinity and beyond (sorry.. just watched Toy Story 3.. great movie btw).
*Pictures are uploading way too slow for my liking. I'll try again lata!
You had your 6-month appointment yesterday so let's get straight to your stats:
- You weigh 18.7 pounds and in the 66th percentile.
- You are 27.5 inches long in the 60th percentile. (so that would make you about half the length of my body ;) )
- Your head is 45cm around and in the 77th percentile. (it did grow at a large rate from last time, so they are going to be keeping an eye on that. Nothing to worry about right now, especially since we just had a CT Scan done on you)
- The doctor said your skin looks great and you have a beautifully shaped head, which got mama lots of praise for doing a good job at playing with you.
- You are right on track developmentally! The doctor told on you buddy.. she said you are perfectly capable of rolling from your back to your belly since you do it the opposite way.. you just don't want to. Another hint that you are going to have my personality - you stubborn monkey!
- You are wearing 6-9 and some 9 month pj's. In shorts/pants you wear 6 or 6-9 month. Onesies 6 or 6-9 month and shortall/overalls 6-9 month. You'll be wearing a very handsome suit for your Mimi's wedding next weekend and I cannot wait to see you in it :)
- Still wearing size 3 diapers, but only in Pampers Cruisers. You've outgrown a 3 in Pampers Dry Baby. Didn't know they were a little different? It's true.
- You eat almost anything. The only thing you don't like is yogurt and turns out I wasn't supposed to give that to you anyways.. woops. You seem to love your veggies more so than fruits, so that is wonderful! I really need to give you meats, but to be honest.. the thought of mushing up some chicken or beef in the blender grosses me out more than a little bit. I'll get over it very soon and feed you the good stuff.. promise!
- You love your toys and have your favorites: your soft firetruck book, the little rattle/piano that plays different songs of which you know how to play, your trucks (already), a few different rattles, and you love love love to be in your exersaucer (I have to raise it up to the next level because you are too tall for the first one now).
- You sleep with a little blue elephant and it's precious to me to see you cuddle with it at night.
- You have no problem reaching and picking up for said toys... now if I can just get you to roll over to get them, I'd feel a lot better. But no.. you don't care THAT much.
- You are into everything! When you do become mobile.. I'm in trouble! I have to clear off the table when I put you in your bumbo to feed you. Even so.. I still have to let you look around and explore for about 5 minutes before you'll actually eat! Yess.. sometimes I get a little aggravated, but you really do make me laugh.
- You went through a little week or so long phase where you decided you didn't want to sleep through the night anymore, but you were sick I found out. You have your first cold/very minor ear infection (you can thank your daddy for bringing that home), but you're on meds now and seem to be feeling a lot better even if you do still have the congestion.
You continue to warm our hearts and make us love more than we knew we were capable of doing. You really are my pride and joy! We love you to infinity and beyond (sorry.. just watched Toy Story 3.. great movie btw).
*Pictures are uploading way too slow for my liking. I'll try again lata!
February 26, 2011
20 Questions
1. If you have pets, do you see them as merely animals or are they members of your family?
We don't have any pets right now, basically because I don't want the responsibility. We will get a dog or two in a few years though. Drew LOVES them.
2. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?
I would never ever worry about money. We'd vacation as a family twice a year. Once to a tropical/foreign location and once to a part of the US that we haven't seen. Trey would continue to do what he loves and the Army would always give us whatever we wanted (ie duty stations, time off, etc). We'd have two more kids (I'm okay with whatever sex as long as we have at least one more boy.. I'd be totally okay with all boys) and their births would be easy and uneventful. We'd all be very very happy.
3. What would you do with a billion dollars?
We wouldn't buy a house yet, but put enough in an account to pay for our dream house to be built when we were done with the Army. Give our parents enough to build their dream homes. Give some to our siblings. Put away enough to pay for our children's education. Buy all the cute things I wanted to for Andrew. Go on those vacations I mentioned above. Donate some here and there. Pay off all debt. Write anonymous checks to people we care about. And just have some fun.
4. What helps to pull you out of a bad mood?
A good cry. A chat with friends, hubby, or mum. Music. Coffee. A hug and opened mouth slobbery kiss from Drew.. or hearing his laugh or seeing his smile.
5. What is your bedtime routine?
First and most importantly, take a Melatonin. Check on Drew. Make Trey look at Drew because obviously he is just so cute in whatever position he is in. Check all the locks even though I know Trey's already checked them. Brush teeth. Wash hair. Turn on fans. Either read or chat until I pass out. Sometimes I ask Trey to scratch my back. He usually complies.
6. What activities did you do in High School? If you could go back, would you do the same stuff or something different?
Echhh.. I would do everything differently. I didn't care one iota about my grades. I was more into the whole social aspect of it. I'll leave it at that..
7. What kind of books do you read?
Drama filled fiction books.
8. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
Still sickeningly happily married to the hubs. My oldest will be 10.5 years old. My youngest.. who knows..4 or 5?? I will be loving on my family and maybe working part time and working on finishing my degree or maybe even starting a completely new one.
9. What’s your fear?
Losing people that I love. Insects. Clowns. Bridges. Being lost.
10. Would you give up all junk food for the rest of your life for the opportunity to see outer space?
Absolutely not. Junk food is way too important and I'm not really into all that space stuff.
11. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Make a bottle and start the Keurig
12. If you could change one thing about your significant other, what would it be?
He wouldn't worry so much of what other people think (myself included) and just do what he wants.
13. If you could pick a new name for yourself, what would it be?
I wouldn't. I really like my name even though a million others share it with me. I think it's fun and girly.
14. If you had to choose between six months of sun or six months of rain, what would you choose?
Who in their right mind would choose 6 months of rain?!?! sun, sun, SUN! (totally agree Ashleigh.. I'll just stick with your answer!)
15. If you could only eat one thing for the next 6 months, what would it be?
pizza!!! (me too!)
16. What is the thing you enjoy about blogging the most?
Being part of such a great community of girls. People that don't blog think I'm crazy, but I love that you are all such a big part of my life!
17. Do you prefer salty or sweet foods?
Ughh.. both. One right after the other.
18. What items are in your purse right now?
Well, I have a purse that is big enough to be used as a diaper bag sooo..
wallet, keys, phone, chapstick, diapers, wipes, bib, extra outfit, toys, blah blah blah blah
19. If you had to choose between vacationing at the beach or in the mountains where would you go?
Beach beach beach! I haven't seen one in almost 3 years :( Unacceptable!
20. What do you watch on television that you know you shouldn’t?
It hasn't started yet, but I know it should be illegal for me to watch that new Coming Home show that is starting on Lifetime next Sunday. I'm going to be an obscene, blubbering mess.. but I know I'll still watch it!
I'm technically supposed to tag others to play along, but I'm not. I love to read these things though so answer away!!
We don't have any pets right now, basically because I don't want the responsibility. We will get a dog or two in a few years though. Drew LOVES them.
2. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?
I would never ever worry about money. We'd vacation as a family twice a year. Once to a tropical/foreign location and once to a part of the US that we haven't seen. Trey would continue to do what he loves and the Army would always give us whatever we wanted (ie duty stations, time off, etc). We'd have two more kids (I'm okay with whatever sex as long as we have at least one more boy.. I'd be totally okay with all boys) and their births would be easy and uneventful. We'd all be very very happy.
3. What would you do with a billion dollars?
We wouldn't buy a house yet, but put enough in an account to pay for our dream house to be built when we were done with the Army. Give our parents enough to build their dream homes. Give some to our siblings. Put away enough to pay for our children's education. Buy all the cute things I wanted to for Andrew. Go on those vacations I mentioned above. Donate some here and there. Pay off all debt. Write anonymous checks to people we care about. And just have some fun.
4. What helps to pull you out of a bad mood?
A good cry. A chat with friends, hubby, or mum. Music. Coffee. A hug and opened mouth slobbery kiss from Drew.. or hearing his laugh or seeing his smile.
5. What is your bedtime routine?
First and most importantly, take a Melatonin. Check on Drew. Make Trey look at Drew because obviously he is just so cute in whatever position he is in. Check all the locks even though I know Trey's already checked them. Brush teeth. Wash hair. Turn on fans. Either read or chat until I pass out. Sometimes I ask Trey to scratch my back. He usually complies.
6. What activities did you do in High School? If you could go back, would you do the same stuff or something different?
Echhh.. I would do everything differently. I didn't care one iota about my grades. I was more into the whole social aspect of it. I'll leave it at that..
7. What kind of books do you read?
Drama filled fiction books.
8. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
Still sickeningly happily married to the hubs. My oldest will be 10.5 years old. My youngest.. who knows..4 or 5?? I will be loving on my family and maybe working part time and working on finishing my degree or maybe even starting a completely new one.
9. What’s your fear?
Losing people that I love. Insects. Clowns. Bridges. Being lost.
10. Would you give up all junk food for the rest of your life for the opportunity to see outer space?
Absolutely not. Junk food is way too important and I'm not really into all that space stuff.
11. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Make a bottle and start the Keurig
12. If you could change one thing about your significant other, what would it be?
He wouldn't worry so much of what other people think (myself included) and just do what he wants.
13. If you could pick a new name for yourself, what would it be?
I wouldn't. I really like my name even though a million others share it with me. I think it's fun and girly.
14. If you had to choose between six months of sun or six months of rain, what would you choose?
Who in their right mind would choose 6 months of rain?!?! sun, sun, SUN! (totally agree Ashleigh.. I'll just stick with your answer!)
15. If you could only eat one thing for the next 6 months, what would it be?
pizza!!! (me too!)
16. What is the thing you enjoy about blogging the most?
Being part of such a great community of girls. People that don't blog think I'm crazy, but I love that you are all such a big part of my life!
17. Do you prefer salty or sweet foods?
Ughh.. both. One right after the other.
18. What items are in your purse right now?
Well, I have a purse that is big enough to be used as a diaper bag sooo..
wallet, keys, phone, chapstick, diapers, wipes, bib, extra outfit, toys, blah blah blah blah
19. If you had to choose between vacationing at the beach or in the mountains where would you go?
Beach beach beach! I haven't seen one in almost 3 years :( Unacceptable!
20. What do you watch on television that you know you shouldn’t?
It hasn't started yet, but I know it should be illegal for me to watch that new Coming Home show that is starting on Lifetime next Sunday. I'm going to be an obscene, blubbering mess.. but I know I'll still watch it!
I'm technically supposed to tag others to play along, but I'm not. I love to read these things though so answer away!!
February 23, 2011
A few things I'm diggin' at the moment
1. American Idol.
I swore this show off two years ago. I didn't miss watching it one single iota last year. Kara really got on my nerves and I can't even really place why. I had no intentions of watching it this year either, but turned it on just to see how the new judges were going to do. That was about 3 weeks ago and I'm a born again Idol addict. I've always been a closet J-Lo lover (not so much her music.. never got down with Jenny on the Block.. but I'm a sucker for her cliche romantic comedy movies) and her personality on the show is enough to make me come running out of that closet. She's so sweet, but not annoying like Paula (Have another sister). And Steven Tyler - how cool is he?? I about died the night they had to put up a warning on the screen for his language. Randy was always good in my book. He makes me laugh.
Early favorite (that I can think of off the top of my head..) I think her name is Lauren. Cute little blond girl who I believe is 15 or 16. I would have said the guy with the deep "Josh Turner" voice when I first saw him, but I'm sure that is going to get old. I know there are more... it's early in the game. I haven't quite remember who is who yet.
2. Sarah's Key.
I'm reading it for this months book club. (yes, I joined a book club). It's probably one of the best books I've ever read and I'm not even finished yet. You can read about it here, but basically it's about a particular little girl and her family who was part of a roundup of Jews in France, 1942. Some of it is told from her point of view, which is so well written that I feel like I'm there with her, and so heartbreaking that it leaves me up for well after I've finished reading with a very sad heart. I feel like it weighs on me. It also ties in with a modern day American journalist, living in France, researching an article on the roundup. They eventually link together.. which is where I'm at now so I have nothing else to add here other than... This is a must read!
3. Making Drew's food.
I've been a puree'ing machine over the last few days. It was time consuming and there is almost no room in our freezer, but there is enough food to last him over a month, I'm sure, and was a lot less expensive to make. Not only did I save us some mula, my baby is eating better goods. There is nothing wrong with eating the packaged stuff.. our parents all gave it to us... but I like this option better. I like that there isn't a shelf life of 2 years on his food. I also like that I can give him more options. I've made (and he loves) carrots, butternut squash, zucchini, broccoli, avocado, sweet potatoes, bananas, mango, apples with cinnamon, pears, and papaya. He loves it all. He does not enjoy yogurt so far.
4. Dresses.
Call it covering up my chubbier than used to be tummy, call it sick of "winter", call it what you will.. but I'm loving me some dresses and plan on wearing a lot more this summer. (or starting now.. because I live in the desert and I can do that). And not just for special occasions. Dress Barn is not your grandmothers go to clothing store anymore. I went in there today with a friend and helloooo cuteness! I shopped at the clearance rack and got three of them. Spent $56 and saved $77. I could have bought just about the whole store.
Those are a few of my favorite things at the moment! What are you loving??
I swore this show off two years ago. I didn't miss watching it one single iota last year. Kara really got on my nerves and I can't even really place why. I had no intentions of watching it this year either, but turned it on just to see how the new judges were going to do. That was about 3 weeks ago and I'm a born again Idol addict. I've always been a closet J-Lo lover (not so much her music.. never got down with Jenny on the Block.. but I'm a sucker for her cliche romantic comedy movies) and her personality on the show is enough to make me come running out of that closet. She's so sweet, but not annoying like Paula (Have another sister). And Steven Tyler - how cool is he?? I about died the night they had to put up a warning on the screen for his language. Randy was always good in my book. He makes me laugh.
Early favorite (that I can think of off the top of my head..) I think her name is Lauren. Cute little blond girl who I believe is 15 or 16. I would have said the guy with the deep "Josh Turner" voice when I first saw him, but I'm sure that is going to get old. I know there are more... it's early in the game. I haven't quite remember who is who yet.
2. Sarah's Key.
I'm reading it for this months book club. (yes, I joined a book club). It's probably one of the best books I've ever read and I'm not even finished yet. You can read about it here, but basically it's about a particular little girl and her family who was part of a roundup of Jews in France, 1942. Some of it is told from her point of view, which is so well written that I feel like I'm there with her, and so heartbreaking that it leaves me up for well after I've finished reading with a very sad heart. I feel like it weighs on me. It also ties in with a modern day American journalist, living in France, researching an article on the roundup. They eventually link together.. which is where I'm at now so I have nothing else to add here other than... This is a must read!
3. Making Drew's food.
I've been a puree'ing machine over the last few days. It was time consuming and there is almost no room in our freezer, but there is enough food to last him over a month, I'm sure, and was a lot less expensive to make. Not only did I save us some mula, my baby is eating better goods. There is nothing wrong with eating the packaged stuff.. our parents all gave it to us... but I like this option better. I like that there isn't a shelf life of 2 years on his food. I also like that I can give him more options. I've made (and he loves) carrots, butternut squash, zucchini, broccoli, avocado, sweet potatoes, bananas, mango, apples with cinnamon, pears, and papaya. He loves it all. He does not enjoy yogurt so far.
4. Dresses.
Call it covering up my chubbier than used to be tummy, call it sick of "winter", call it what you will.. but I'm loving me some dresses and plan on wearing a lot more this summer. (or starting now.. because I live in the desert and I can do that). And not just for special occasions. Dress Barn is not your grandmothers go to clothing store anymore. I went in there today with a friend and helloooo cuteness! I shopped at the clearance rack and got three of them. Spent $56 and saved $77. I could have bought just about the whole store.
Those are a few of my favorite things at the moment! What are you loving??
February 21, 2011
End of another 4-day
Another 4-day weekend comes to a close. Why do they always go by so fast??
We had a good one. Very low key. I was able to get some gym time in, although not as much as I planned and ate not so good for me food for the majority of the weekend. And I wonder why I'm stuck at 7 pounds lost! I do good all week and then blow it on the weekend.
We had a yard sale Saturday morning. That was an experience! Not as bad as I pictured it to be, but still...
We had to try and speak Spanish rather than people making an effort to speak English. Not the case with everyone, but the majority. I actually want to learn Spanish while we are here, but I don't feel like I should be at a disadvantage because I don't. Again.. America. Some people had mad bargaining skills and some just piled stuff up and said something about dinero in a questioning tone. Every single person that came lived in Juarez. Not that it makes one bit of difference to me.. I was just glad they were taking our junk.
None of my books were sold, however. I was pretty perplexed about that until Trey pointed out the obvious... the books are in English. Hello!!
We watched a few movies over the weekend.
1. How to train your dragon. I LOVED THIS MOVIE. So adorable and Trey now wants a pet dragon. This is one we will have to get for Drew (sure hope Mizzy read that ;) )
2. The social network. Very interesting. One of my favorite parts was when they showed when "facebook me" became a term that everyone knew. And how everyone started taking cameras to parties so they could tag their friends and relive the party the next morning.
3. A documentary called Babies. We have been very into the documentaries on Netflix lately. This one was alright. It showed the differences between 4 different babies lives from birth to a little over 1 it looked like. The four were from San Fransisco, Africa, Mongolia and Japan. One of the main points that stood out to me is I am EXTREMELY thankful to have the conveniences that we do! For instance, I thank God for diapers. Self explanatory, but those African moms....shooo... no thank you! The Mongolian baby was not watched over nearly as much as our babies are. It was no big deal for it to be alone in a field with cows charging all around it. I almost had a heart attack.
We grilled out with a few friends on Sunday. Of course on the one slightly chilly day of the weekend.
I'm thinking Trey has a greater understanding on what it's like to be a stay at home parent. It's been a little harder with Andrew (not impossible by any means), but with teething he is pretty irritable. He also knows we exist now even if we leave the room, so he does not like it very much if we leave his sight. That makes for one exhausted mama! On the other hand, the more frequent laughter out of him makes my heart smile. His sweet babbling is so much fun and I love to see him learn more and more every day. So it's give and take, but I know Trey appreciates me just a little more than he already did!
That's about it! I don't have much going on this week, which should make for a loong one I'm sure. I leave to go to SC next week for all of the wedding festivities. We are almost sure that Trey isn't going to be able to go (which I hope everyone understands). How sad is it that I'm so worried about him without me to take care of him?? I know he is a big boy and can take care of himself, but I know he won't eat as well. He considers Popeyes an acceptable thing to eat on a daily basis... what is he going to do without me??
We had a good one. Very low key. I was able to get some gym time in, although not as much as I planned and ate not so good for me food for the majority of the weekend. And I wonder why I'm stuck at 7 pounds lost! I do good all week and then blow it on the weekend.
We had a yard sale Saturday morning. That was an experience! Not as bad as I pictured it to be, but still...
We had to try and speak Spanish rather than people making an effort to speak English. Not the case with everyone, but the majority. I actually want to learn Spanish while we are here, but I don't feel like I should be at a disadvantage because I don't. Again.. America. Some people had mad bargaining skills and some just piled stuff up and said something about dinero in a questioning tone. Every single person that came lived in Juarez. Not that it makes one bit of difference to me.. I was just glad they were taking our junk.
None of my books were sold, however. I was pretty perplexed about that until Trey pointed out the obvious... the books are in English. Hello!!
We watched a few movies over the weekend.
1. How to train your dragon. I LOVED THIS MOVIE. So adorable and Trey now wants a pet dragon. This is one we will have to get for Drew (sure hope Mizzy read that ;) )
2. The social network. Very interesting. One of my favorite parts was when they showed when "facebook me" became a term that everyone knew. And how everyone started taking cameras to parties so they could tag their friends and relive the party the next morning.
3. A documentary called Babies. We have been very into the documentaries on Netflix lately. This one was alright. It showed the differences between 4 different babies lives from birth to a little over 1 it looked like. The four were from San Fransisco, Africa, Mongolia and Japan. One of the main points that stood out to me is I am EXTREMELY thankful to have the conveniences that we do! For instance, I thank God for diapers. Self explanatory, but those African moms....shooo... no thank you! The Mongolian baby was not watched over nearly as much as our babies are. It was no big deal for it to be alone in a field with cows charging all around it. I almost had a heart attack.
We grilled out with a few friends on Sunday. Of course on the one slightly chilly day of the weekend.
I'm thinking Trey has a greater understanding on what it's like to be a stay at home parent. It's been a little harder with Andrew (not impossible by any means), but with teething he is pretty irritable. He also knows we exist now even if we leave the room, so he does not like it very much if we leave his sight. That makes for one exhausted mama! On the other hand, the more frequent laughter out of him makes my heart smile. His sweet babbling is so much fun and I love to see him learn more and more every day. So it's give and take, but I know Trey appreciates me just a little more than he already did!
That's about it! I don't have much going on this week, which should make for a loong one I'm sure. I leave to go to SC next week for all of the wedding festivities. We are almost sure that Trey isn't going to be able to go (which I hope everyone understands). How sad is it that I'm so worried about him without me to take care of him?? I know he is a big boy and can take care of himself, but I know he won't eat as well. He considers Popeyes an acceptable thing to eat on a daily basis... what is he going to do without me??
February 16, 2011
Take the time to read this
I was so incredibly moved by this article that I had to share with everyone that may not have seen it.
You can click here to visit this wonderful woman's website, but here it is...
As many of you know, my husband came home from our third deployment not too long ago. During the deployment, a reporter asked me to share “What I Knew” about deployments and military life. This was my answer:
As I forced my hands to unfurl from his neck, feeling the familiar sting in my nose as tears pushed against my will, the words rattled and echoed in my brain. “Not again.”
I watched him walk away–that uniform, identifiable gait—and my heart bent and splintered as the reality of a third deployment began to shower over me.
I picked up the phone, dialing the numbers my numb fingers always meander toward, and sat in silence while she tried to ease my pain. “I can’t imagine…He will be home….I’m here.”
And then she said six words that shot through my ears, penetrated my brain, and stiffened my spine: “You know how to do this.”
She was right. I do know how to do this. I intimately know the all-too familiar lump in my throat. The year of being both father and mother, making the best of a situation. I know exactly how one year feels as I X each day off my calendar. And I know how to ensure that while our lives are on hold, we still live.
The truth is I know a lot:
» The thought of being alone for a year doesn’t bother me. The fear of being alone for a lifetime—does.
» Flat rate boxes can hold twenty whoopee cushions, four kindergarten projects, and five perfume-scented letters.
» Technology can be a double-edged sword—one side delivering his face; the other a brutal live-action feed of explosions and camouflaged body parts.
» Murphy’s Law is a constant companion. The moment he walks out the door, anything that can break, collapse, bleed, or explode–will .
» Five hours of uninterrupted sleep is a gift from the deployment gods
» Holidays are hard, but manageable.
» Deployments come and go, but sand from his boots never leaves.
» Nothing can replace a handwritten letter. Through those beautifully folded pages, he is holding my hand again.
» When the National Anthem is played, I know goosebumps will rise on my arms, and a lump will fill my throat.
» The silence in communication following a war zone attack is agonizing.
» Laughter is a powerful ally.
» Each deployment offers two options: grow or regress. This is a choice.
» Cereal is always a dinner option.
» Videos of lost teeth, ballerina recitals, and preschool graduations can be emailed to Iraq nearly instantly.
» Five powers of attorney and the intimate details of his will are needed to navigate a deployment.
» White out blizzards can actually bury a truck in five minutes.
» Rosie the Riveter was right: We can do it.
» Children cling to hope and the promise of tomorrow.
» Living in each moment together is possible when facing the fear that it could be your last.
» Welcome home kisses are sweeter than the finest chocolate.
» Anger will grip me and depression can hold me, but another military spouse will steady me.
» A six-year-old child can feel the absence of her father so deeply that she can suffer from clinical depression.
» A military spouse will often hold her/his tongue, silencing a story, for fear of sounding “unpatriotic.”
» The sound of a bugle can make my heart swell with pride or collapse in sorrow.
» Duct tape and a monkey wrench can fix nearly anything.
» Despite the protestors and those who tell me I “knew” what I was getting into, I know there are countless American citizens who will go above and beyond to show they support us.
There are many things I know.
I know how to change the brakes on my truck, rappel from the side of a cliff, shoot a double-barreled shotgun, balance a checkbook, earn my keep, and kiss a child enough to feel like two.
But there are still so many things I don’t know.
» I don’t know how to start my heart again when I see a death notification car on my street.
» When that knock echoes on the door of my neighbor, I don’t know how to forgive myself when I am relieved.
» I don’t know how to hug him enough to last a lifetime, or kiss him just so in order to feel satisfied—should our reunion be at the foot of a pine box.
» I’m not willing to learn how to pretend he doesn’t exist, to keep him out of our life while it goes on without him, or to build a wall so high he has no way to scale it.
» I don’t know how to stop his panic attacks, and I have no idea how to make my nightmares of rampant bombs and lifeless limbs disappear.
» I don’t know how to adjust to his presence in my house when our floor rarely feels the weight of his boots.
» I don’t know how to tell his small children that, yes, he leaves them all the time. But because he loves them so deeply, he is willing to die to keep them free.
» I can’t understand those who would question my desire to stay with him, or how I can peacefully sleep beside a “killer.”
» I am amazed and confounded that despite all he has seen, he still has the courage to laugh.
» I don’t’ know how to give up on my family.
But, most importantly:
I have no clue how to still my pounding heart when he finally walks through our door again, I don’t know how to pull my hands from his sand-stained neck and say goodbye, and I don’t know how to ever walk away from a man who stands while many choose to sit.
Be still my heart...
You can click here to visit this wonderful woman's website, but here it is...
As many of you know, my husband came home from our third deployment not too long ago. During the deployment, a reporter asked me to share “What I Knew” about deployments and military life. This was my answer:
As I forced my hands to unfurl from his neck, feeling the familiar sting in my nose as tears pushed against my will, the words rattled and echoed in my brain. “Not again.”
I watched him walk away–that uniform, identifiable gait—and my heart bent and splintered as the reality of a third deployment began to shower over me.
I picked up the phone, dialing the numbers my numb fingers always meander toward, and sat in silence while she tried to ease my pain. “I can’t imagine…He will be home….I’m here.”
And then she said six words that shot through my ears, penetrated my brain, and stiffened my spine: “You know how to do this.”
She was right. I do know how to do this. I intimately know the all-too familiar lump in my throat. The year of being both father and mother, making the best of a situation. I know exactly how one year feels as I X each day off my calendar. And I know how to ensure that while our lives are on hold, we still live.
The truth is I know a lot:
» The thought of being alone for a year doesn’t bother me. The fear of being alone for a lifetime—does.
» Flat rate boxes can hold twenty whoopee cushions, four kindergarten projects, and five perfume-scented letters.
» Technology can be a double-edged sword—one side delivering his face; the other a brutal live-action feed of explosions and camouflaged body parts.
» Murphy’s Law is a constant companion. The moment he walks out the door, anything that can break, collapse, bleed, or explode–will .
» Five hours of uninterrupted sleep is a gift from the deployment gods
» Holidays are hard, but manageable.
» Deployments come and go, but sand from his boots never leaves.
» Nothing can replace a handwritten letter. Through those beautifully folded pages, he is holding my hand again.
» When the National Anthem is played, I know goosebumps will rise on my arms, and a lump will fill my throat.
» The silence in communication following a war zone attack is agonizing.
» Laughter is a powerful ally.
» Each deployment offers two options: grow or regress. This is a choice.
» Cereal is always a dinner option.
» Videos of lost teeth, ballerina recitals, and preschool graduations can be emailed to Iraq nearly instantly.
» Five powers of attorney and the intimate details of his will are needed to navigate a deployment.
» White out blizzards can actually bury a truck in five minutes.
» Rosie the Riveter was right: We can do it.
» Children cling to hope and the promise of tomorrow.
» Living in each moment together is possible when facing the fear that it could be your last.
» Welcome home kisses are sweeter than the finest chocolate.
» Anger will grip me and depression can hold me, but another military spouse will steady me.
» A six-year-old child can feel the absence of her father so deeply that she can suffer from clinical depression.
» A military spouse will often hold her/his tongue, silencing a story, for fear of sounding “unpatriotic.”
» The sound of a bugle can make my heart swell with pride or collapse in sorrow.
» Duct tape and a monkey wrench can fix nearly anything.
» Despite the protestors and those who tell me I “knew” what I was getting into, I know there are countless American citizens who will go above and beyond to show they support us.
There are many things I know.
I know how to change the brakes on my truck, rappel from the side of a cliff, shoot a double-barreled shotgun, balance a checkbook, earn my keep, and kiss a child enough to feel like two.
But there are still so many things I don’t know.
» I don’t know how to start my heart again when I see a death notification car on my street.
» When that knock echoes on the door of my neighbor, I don’t know how to forgive myself when I am relieved.
» I don’t know how to hug him enough to last a lifetime, or kiss him just so in order to feel satisfied—should our reunion be at the foot of a pine box.
» I’m not willing to learn how to pretend he doesn’t exist, to keep him out of our life while it goes on without him, or to build a wall so high he has no way to scale it.
» I don’t know how to stop his panic attacks, and I have no idea how to make my nightmares of rampant bombs and lifeless limbs disappear.
» I don’t know how to adjust to his presence in my house when our floor rarely feels the weight of his boots.
» I don’t know how to tell his small children that, yes, he leaves them all the time. But because he loves them so deeply, he is willing to die to keep them free.
» I can’t understand those who would question my desire to stay with him, or how I can peacefully sleep beside a “killer.”
» I am amazed and confounded that despite all he has seen, he still has the courage to laugh.
» I don’t’ know how to give up on my family.
But, most importantly:
I have no clue how to still my pounding heart when he finally walks through our door again, I don’t know how to pull my hands from his sand-stained neck and say goodbye, and I don’t know how to ever walk away from a man who stands while many choose to sit.
Be still my heart...
Let go and let God
That was one of my Grandmother's favorite sayings, I believe, and it's one that really stuck with me. Along with something about there only being one cook in the kitchen and "a watched pot never boils".
But, anywhooo...
For the past few weeks, I've tried to put the weight of the world on my shoulders. That's who I am.. a worry wart! It's just what I do. I like to take the world and try to mold it in my hands just so. There are times when I fully believe that I can take any situation and make it go the exact way I want it to, even if the odds are stacked against me. I'll make it work. Sometimes with words and actions, and sometimes by sheer will. While oftentimes I am successful, I am sure that this is the main cause for the crick in my neck 99.9% of the time. It's hard to need all of that control!
Two situations that have been sitting right there on the tippy top of my shoulders: Andrew's medical issues and that ugly D word (deployment.. that will be the only time I say it!)
The whole thing with Andrew.. I HAVE to let go. I hate this saying, but "it is what it is". God made him a certain way. I'm not at all convinced that what the doctor said is the actual case, but if it is, what can I do about it? You were all right, there is plenty of technology out there and doctors know what they are doing (most of them). If it can't be fixed.. there is a reason for it. God doesn't screw up. Repeat over and over... and over. He doesn't make mistakes. We'll be fine!
D word.. ahh.. D word, D word, D word.
We all know it eventually comes up. We can't avoid it forever. Of course DH and I have to make it more difficult than necessary. I've already done a post on this before, but to refresh the memory, he is debating going over to another unit to go sooner. I'm all for it. In fact, I'm hoping for it. Of course, once we've discussed it to absolutely no end and have both come to the conclusion that we both want him to go ahead and go and my hopes are up.. it's starting to look like he'll have to wait.
Sound crazy, do I? Listen, he's going sooner or later. Either this year or next. Let's just get this show on the road and get it over with! Of course, I've had our family map planned out since we got married. I knew exactly when I wanted to have kids and how many and what sex I wanted them to be. (see my control issues here?? Hey.. I wanted a boy first and look what I got!) If he goes sooner.. he'll come home and will be exactly in the time line of when I wanted the second child. If he goes late.. shooo.. that throws me all of! So far, his BN doesn't sound like they will let him go. You mean his BC doesn't care that it doesn't coincide with my family plan??? I kid. I need to learn to be okay with this. The Army certainly isn't going to consult me every time they want to take my husband away, as much as I think they should :)
God has a better life plan than I do. As hard as that is for me to grasp and agree with.. I know it's true. If he doesn't go sooner, there is a darn good reason for it. And I'm pretty sure the Big Man will let me know when it's time to have another child.
I'm ridiculous. I'm letting go. I'm very positive that I'll have to re-read this post a million times and chant that phrase over and over again... maybe one day it will sink it.
But, anywhooo...
For the past few weeks, I've tried to put the weight of the world on my shoulders. That's who I am.. a worry wart! It's just what I do. I like to take the world and try to mold it in my hands just so. There are times when I fully believe that I can take any situation and make it go the exact way I want it to, even if the odds are stacked against me. I'll make it work. Sometimes with words and actions, and sometimes by sheer will. While oftentimes I am successful, I am sure that this is the main cause for the crick in my neck 99.9% of the time. It's hard to need all of that control!
Two situations that have been sitting right there on the tippy top of my shoulders: Andrew's medical issues and that ugly D word (deployment.. that will be the only time I say it!)
The whole thing with Andrew.. I HAVE to let go. I hate this saying, but "it is what it is". God made him a certain way. I'm not at all convinced that what the doctor said is the actual case, but if it is, what can I do about it? You were all right, there is plenty of technology out there and doctors know what they are doing (most of them). If it can't be fixed.. there is a reason for it. God doesn't screw up. Repeat over and over... and over. He doesn't make mistakes. We'll be fine!
D word.. ahh.. D word, D word, D word.
We all know it eventually comes up. We can't avoid it forever. Of course DH and I have to make it more difficult than necessary. I've already done a post on this before, but to refresh the memory, he is debating going over to another unit to go sooner. I'm all for it. In fact, I'm hoping for it. Of course, once we've discussed it to absolutely no end and have both come to the conclusion that we both want him to go ahead and go and my hopes are up.. it's starting to look like he'll have to wait.
Sound crazy, do I? Listen, he's going sooner or later. Either this year or next. Let's just get this show on the road and get it over with! Of course, I've had our family map planned out since we got married. I knew exactly when I wanted to have kids and how many and what sex I wanted them to be. (see my control issues here?? Hey.. I wanted a boy first and look what I got!) If he goes sooner.. he'll come home and will be exactly in the time line of when I wanted the second child. If he goes late.. shooo.. that throws me all of! So far, his BN doesn't sound like they will let him go. You mean his BC doesn't care that it doesn't coincide with my family plan??? I kid. I need to learn to be okay with this. The Army certainly isn't going to consult me every time they want to take my husband away, as much as I think they should :)
God has a better life plan than I do. As hard as that is for me to grasp and agree with.. I know it's true. If he doesn't go sooner, there is a darn good reason for it. And I'm pretty sure the Big Man will let me know when it's time to have another child.
I'm ridiculous. I'm letting go. I'm very positive that I'll have to re-read this post a million times and chant that phrase over and over again... maybe one day it will sink it.
February 14, 2011
In the blink of an eye... Part II
This morning was Andrew's Ophthalmology appointment. I felt good going in there, expecting the best. We got some good news and bad news..
The Good ~
Most likely, the difference in dialation is nothing. Apparently, 20% of our population has the same issue.. it's just a thing.
The Bad ~
It is also most likely that he can't see out of his left eye. As in, completely blind out of it or can see just very very little. He couldn't tell me this was 100% the case, but kept saying he is "pretty sure". Which, btw, has nothing to do with the dialation problem. When the doc covered up his left eye, Drew was able to follow the toy he had in front of his face fully. When his right eye was covered, he was clearly upset and wasn't tracking the toy at all. None of the three we tried.. not any of the multiple times we tried. If we hadn't gone in there, we probably wouldn't have found this out until his first eye exam.
We are being referred to a Pediatric Ophthalmologist off post to get more definitive answers.
A lot of things went through my mind.. was it because of his birth? Because they had to use the vacuum on him? Could it be my fault.. I already carry some guilt for everything that went wrong as it is. Did I help cause this too? If he is blind in his left eye, there is a chance he could develop a lazy eye. Kids are horribly mean. It will break my heart to know he is being picked on.
I know we can deal with this. It could be SO much worse! We will treat him no differently and he will know that he can still try and accomplish anything he would be able to with both eyes :) Trey is a little more angry and down about it all, but I'm trying to help him see that compared to what we've been through with him already, this is nothing.
Maybe this will end up being a non-issue, even. If the doc couldn't give me a 100%, this is the problem answer, I still don't fully believe it's true. If it is.. it's okay.. it changes nothing. He is still my happy, charming, adorable little boy :)
The Good ~
Most likely, the difference in dialation is nothing. Apparently, 20% of our population has the same issue.. it's just a thing.
The Bad ~
It is also most likely that he can't see out of his left eye. As in, completely blind out of it or can see just very very little. He couldn't tell me this was 100% the case, but kept saying he is "pretty sure". Which, btw, has nothing to do with the dialation problem. When the doc covered up his left eye, Drew was able to follow the toy he had in front of his face fully. When his right eye was covered, he was clearly upset and wasn't tracking the toy at all. None of the three we tried.. not any of the multiple times we tried. If we hadn't gone in there, we probably wouldn't have found this out until his first eye exam.
We are being referred to a Pediatric Ophthalmologist off post to get more definitive answers.
A lot of things went through my mind.. was it because of his birth? Because they had to use the vacuum on him? Could it be my fault.. I already carry some guilt for everything that went wrong as it is. Did I help cause this too? If he is blind in his left eye, there is a chance he could develop a lazy eye. Kids are horribly mean. It will break my heart to know he is being picked on.
I know we can deal with this. It could be SO much worse! We will treat him no differently and he will know that he can still try and accomplish anything he would be able to with both eyes :) Trey is a little more angry and down about it all, but I'm trying to help him see that compared to what we've been through with him already, this is nothing.
Maybe this will end up being a non-issue, even. If the doc couldn't give me a 100%, this is the problem answer, I still don't fully believe it's true. If it is.. it's okay.. it changes nothing. He is still my happy, charming, adorable little boy :)
February 9, 2011
What's your song?
Y'all did great with the wedding shoe fiasco.. crisis is solved and our hot pink shoes are being ordered. Bonus - pink pashminas instead of cardigans!
Now on to the next wedding subject. SIL sent me a text this morning saying:
"pick a song to be introduced at the wedding to. I need it by next week. This song defines you :) have fun with it"
Yeahhhh... this is my dream assignment. I've literally had daydreams where someone has asked me to do this for one reason or another *don't judge.. I LOVE music.. of all kinds!* Now of course, when the pressure is on, I can't remember any of the songs I've picked in my make believe world.
My first instinct is Thunderstruck by AC/DC. Not that the song describes me, but come on... how do you beat that intro?? It's perfect for me!
I let the bride now that that was my pick so far but not my final answer.
What would be your bridal party entrance song??
Now on to the next wedding subject. SIL sent me a text this morning saying:
"pick a song to be introduced at the wedding to. I need it by next week. This song defines you :) have fun with it"
Yeahhhh... this is my dream assignment. I've literally had daydreams where someone has asked me to do this for one reason or another *don't judge.. I LOVE music.. of all kinds!* Now of course, when the pressure is on, I can't remember any of the songs I've picked in my make believe world.
My first instinct is Thunderstruck by AC/DC. Not that the song describes me, but come on... how do you beat that intro?? It's perfect for me!
I let the bride now that that was my pick so far but not my final answer.
What would be your bridal party entrance song??
February 8, 2011
Let's play catch up!
Seems that we have made it through "Winter Storm 2011". And I thought South Carolina was bad!! There was maybe a total of 1/2 inch of snow that ever accumulated and the city was shut down for almost a full week. Not just like a cutesy let's-all-stay-home-and-cuddle shut down, it was a dangerous people-living-without-water-and-electricity shut down. Pipes have burst all over the city and homes have been flooded. Schools couldn't open from Wednesday, I think, until today.. one day short of a week. I have to say, though, that the community seems to have gotten together really well and problems look like they are being solved quickly. We put our names down as volunteers to have people come and shower and have a warm place to sleep since we were one of the very few that kept these luxuries, but no one took us up on it. We tried! The high is 70 today. Tomorrow's high is 40. My sinuses already hurt.
Speaking of hurting.. my poor baby is cutting his first tooth! I can tell it is effecting him, but only minimally. He's just a little extra fussy and sometimes is having trouble falling asleep. I can't imagine what he will look like with a little tooth in there :)
I have been a busy little bee planning my SIL bachelorette activities. A group of 9 of us are staying a weekend in downtown historic Savannah, GA and I can't wait! I fly home in early March and will be staying about 2 weeks or so. Wish me luck.. flying solo with the babe!
I had an epic fail of a long weekend with the diet. Echh.. it all started when a friend came over Thursday night and forced me to drink a few glasses of chocolate wine. And went downhill from there to include chocolate covered strawberries, a mini brownie, chips and dip, chex mix... etc etc! I am back on track now though and thankfully only gained a pound.. it's amazing!
We have a busy week planned this week with appointments for me, getting together with friends, and getting ready and organized for a yard sale on Saturday morning! No rest for this girl!
*Thank you all so much for your thoughts of last weeks scare with Andrew! It means so much to me to read your kind words. I will keep you all updated!*
Speaking of hurting.. my poor baby is cutting his first tooth! I can tell it is effecting him, but only minimally. He's just a little extra fussy and sometimes is having trouble falling asleep. I can't imagine what he will look like with a little tooth in there :)
I have been a busy little bee planning my SIL bachelorette activities. A group of 9 of us are staying a weekend in downtown historic Savannah, GA and I can't wait! I fly home in early March and will be staying about 2 weeks or so. Wish me luck.. flying solo with the babe!
I had an epic fail of a long weekend with the diet. Echh.. it all started when a friend came over Thursday night and forced me to drink a few glasses of chocolate wine. And went downhill from there to include chocolate covered strawberries, a mini brownie, chips and dip, chex mix... etc etc! I am back on track now though and thankfully only gained a pound.. it's amazing!
We have a busy week planned this week with appointments for me, getting together with friends, and getting ready and organized for a yard sale on Saturday morning! No rest for this girl!
*Thank you all so much for your thoughts of last weeks scare with Andrew! It means so much to me to read your kind words. I will keep you all updated!*
February 4, 2011
In the blink of an eye..
... your world can be threatened to crash down all around you.
Good thing today.. our world only toppled and did not totally crash.
Trey and I started noticing not too long ago that at times throughout the day, Andrew's left pupil was considerably larger than his right. I made an appointment at SFMC to get it checked out, but wasn't very concerned. I didn't think too much of it and was doing just that.. just getting it checked out.
And this conversation with the doc is where we can enter the teeter-tottling (real phrase? sure. ) of my world.
has he been throwing up? (no)
has he been through any kind of trauma? (yes.. enter birth story)
was he hooked up to oxygen? (yes)
he never had any bleeding in his brain though? (yes actually, he did have a hematoma)
This is when she tells me that she is not concerned in the least with getting him to see an Opthamologist at the moment and I needed to get him up to William Beaumont for a CT Scan to make sure there was not a brain tumor.
Just like that. My brain didn't even have time to be wrapped around the concept before I was out the door and on my way. I was going to the Radiology Dept. to make sure my baby didn't have a brain tumor.
I didn't cry until I was alone with him in the room, seeing him basically in a straight jacket and having to grab a hold of his little 5 month old chin to make sure he didn't move a spec while he bawled his eyes out. This couldn't be happening. His life couldn't be threatened for the second time in less than a half of a year. But it very well could be happening, the other half of my brain was screaming ( I have two sides I guess.. one that loves to stay in denial and one that needs to prepare for the absolute worst.). It happens to people all of the time.. you are no different.
It is not, after all, happening to us - thank God. His pediatrician is a saint. She was very concerned and even though she was off, arranged to have the results called in to her so she could be sure we got the news ASAP. As I was pulling in my driveway she called with the wonderful news! I feel the need to send her flowers.. or at least a card.
So now we move on to the next step. We'll be getting referred to see an Opthalmologist at the end of next week and will go from there. Whatever it is, it's not a brain tumor, we can deal with it.
We are an extremely thankful family tonight. Andrew.. we love you to pieces, but please stop scaring us like that.
Good thing today.. our world only toppled and did not totally crash.
Trey and I started noticing not too long ago that at times throughout the day, Andrew's left pupil was considerably larger than his right. I made an appointment at SFMC to get it checked out, but wasn't very concerned. I didn't think too much of it and was doing just that.. just getting it checked out.
And this conversation with the doc is where we can enter the teeter-tottling (real phrase? sure. ) of my world.
has he been throwing up? (no)
has he been through any kind of trauma? (yes.. enter birth story)
was he hooked up to oxygen? (yes)
he never had any bleeding in his brain though? (yes actually, he did have a hematoma)
This is when she tells me that she is not concerned in the least with getting him to see an Opthamologist at the moment and I needed to get him up to William Beaumont for a CT Scan to make sure there was not a brain tumor.
Just like that. My brain didn't even have time to be wrapped around the concept before I was out the door and on my way. I was going to the Radiology Dept. to make sure my baby didn't have a brain tumor.
I didn't cry until I was alone with him in the room, seeing him basically in a straight jacket and having to grab a hold of his little 5 month old chin to make sure he didn't move a spec while he bawled his eyes out. This couldn't be happening. His life couldn't be threatened for the second time in less than a half of a year. But it very well could be happening, the other half of my brain was screaming ( I have two sides I guess.. one that loves to stay in denial and one that needs to prepare for the absolute worst.). It happens to people all of the time.. you are no different.
It is not, after all, happening to us - thank God. His pediatrician is a saint. She was very concerned and even though she was off, arranged to have the results called in to her so she could be sure we got the news ASAP. As I was pulling in my driveway she called with the wonderful news! I feel the need to send her flowers.. or at least a card.
So now we move on to the next step. We'll be getting referred to see an Opthalmologist at the end of next week and will go from there. Whatever it is, it's not a brain tumor, we can deal with it.
We are an extremely thankful family tonight. Andrew.. we love you to pieces, but please stop scaring us like that.
February 2, 2011
Stacy and Clinton - we need your help!
What not to wear: Military Style?
I have a poll for you girls.. answer honestly!
Do you think dark pink heels would compliment your man in his dress blues. Not for him of course, but on you with a navy dress?
Here's the story..
I have a poll for you girls.. answer honestly!
Do you think dark pink heels would compliment your man in his dress blues. Not for him of course, but on you with a navy dress?
Here's the story..
I have a very indecisive SIL that is getting married next month. Yes, NEXT MONTH, so we she needs to make this decision like... yesterday. Us bridesmaids are wearing navy blue dresses.. on the short side.. and SIL had originally said she'd like us in nude shoes. Yesterday she called asking how I thought dark/hot pink shoes would look with it along with the same color cardigan. Too cute says I! Not so much says her stepmom and photographer. They say it won't look good with the guys' blues.
I said I would take it to the experts soooo here you go!
We need help!
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| Not our dress or shoes, but to give you a nice mental image (boards.weddingbee.com) |
January 30, 2011
Operation: Hot Mom
I don't think I've mentioned this over the past week, but on Monday, I started the South Beach diet. I didn't have enough time to make ONLY working out work for me. I was getting into Curves three times a week and still eating whatever the heck I wanted. Not very effective! I'm able to work out more now that I switched gyms and it helps that I'm getting more cardio, but the diet has been amazing.
I've never been a diet person. I don't think I've ever been successful with one, besides that one time out of like 50 that I did Weight Watchers. But this one? This has been great so far.
I'm sure everyone is familiar with South Beach, but just in case you're not, basically you are cutting out carbs and sugar. It's broken down into different phases (phase 1 being the more strict of the two where you can have NO carbs or sugar. Phase 2 is where you start gradually adding GOOD carbs back in).
I was terrified to start this! I live for bread, pastas, potatoes... all that good stuff! But I knew I had to do something, so I just made up my mind. I was doing it. I literally had to mentally prep myself. Tell myself over and over that food is for nourishment, not fun.
The first day was super easy. The second day was the worst. I was starving and grouchy. Every day since has been great.
If you put a bowl of mashed potatoes in my face right now, I could easily turn it down. I'm never, ever starving. I feel healthier. Annddd....
I've lost somewhere between 5-7 pounds. In a week. (scale fluctuates.)
I'm being realistic about this. I know that it's impossible to say that I will never have a potato or a slice of pizza again. Ha! My goal is to make this a lifestyle change. Once I get to my goal weight, I plan to keep this up for the most part, but if I really want agood bad carb, I'll eat it and not beat myself up over it. It just won't be an every day thing. If I slip up, I'll jump right back on.
Of course, I want to feel good about myself and how I look, but mainly, I want to be healthy for my family. I want to run around with my son. I want to go on hikes with my husband and not have to quit halfway through. I want to live a long, healthy life and not worry about any preventable, weight related diseases.
Soooo.. wish me luck on this journey! I plan to do regular posts about this. I'll update with my progress and list some ideas for different foods to eat and ways to eat them.. ahem.. in the first two weeks eating eggs everyday gets old. You have to get creative! Stay tuned...
I've never been a diet person. I don't think I've ever been successful with one, besides that one time out of like 50 that I did Weight Watchers. But this one? This has been great so far.
I'm sure everyone is familiar with South Beach, but just in case you're not, basically you are cutting out carbs and sugar. It's broken down into different phases (phase 1 being the more strict of the two where you can have NO carbs or sugar. Phase 2 is where you start gradually adding GOOD carbs back in).
I was terrified to start this! I live for bread, pastas, potatoes... all that good stuff! But I knew I had to do something, so I just made up my mind. I was doing it. I literally had to mentally prep myself. Tell myself over and over that food is for nourishment, not fun.
The first day was super easy. The second day was the worst. I was starving and grouchy. Every day since has been great.
If you put a bowl of mashed potatoes in my face right now, I could easily turn it down. I'm never, ever starving. I feel healthier. Annddd....
I've lost somewhere between 5-7 pounds. In a week. (scale fluctuates.)
I'm being realistic about this. I know that it's impossible to say that I will never have a potato or a slice of pizza again. Ha! My goal is to make this a lifestyle change. Once I get to my goal weight, I plan to keep this up for the most part, but if I really want a
Of course, I want to feel good about myself and how I look, but mainly, I want to be healthy for my family. I want to run around with my son. I want to go on hikes with my husband and not have to quit halfway through. I want to live a long, healthy life and not worry about any preventable, weight related diseases.
Soooo.. wish me luck on this journey! I plan to do regular posts about this. I'll update with my progress and list some ideas for different foods to eat and ways to eat them.. ahem.. in the first two weeks eating eggs everyday gets old. You have to get creative! Stay tuned...
January 28, 2011
~ 5 Months ~
Happy 5 months buddy!
I can't believe that you have been with us for 5 months. 5 months. I don't know how, but it seems like time has flown by and has taken it's sweet time all at once. Either way, I do know that they have been the best 5 months of my life.
I sit here typing this as you are entertaining yourself on the floor. You are having such a great time on your playmat. I don't think you have stop squealing and talking to your toys for the past 1/2 hour. You are so full of joy and I love seeing life through your eyes! You smile all of the time! At all of your toys. At every single person you meet. Especially at other babies and kids. I think you are going to be Mr. Social Butterfly as soon as you are able!
You are growing like a weed and I just want to slow. down. time. Slow it wayyyy down. I am so thankful that I am able to spend every day with you so I don't have to miss one little thing. I love your daddy even more so for allowing us this time together!
Your stats:
~ At 5 months old, you are wearing 6 month clothing and they are getting a little snug on you. If feels like I am always rearranging your clothes because you grow out of everything so quickly. You are still in size 3 diapers though.
~ You still take a 6 oz bottle every three hours during the day. Plus, you have rice cereal late morning or for lunch and a veggie around your last bottle for the day. So far all you have had is green beans and peas. You will eat both of them, but I wouldn't go as far as to say that you love them! We are going to try feeding you a mashed up guacamole this weekend!
~ You sleep through the night for 12 to 13 hours at a time. 6pm to anywhere from 6-7 the next morning. I would like to change your bedtime, however, to a little later. Your daddy would like to see you for more than just an hour a day and you also put a bit of a damper on our social life ;)
~ You had two over night stays with a babysitter this month!! You slept over at Mrs. Sue and Mr. Chris's house twice while we went to two different Military balls! We had a lot of fun, but I sure did miss you!
~ You are a pro at rolling over from your tummy to your back. We can't seem to keep you on your tummy at all now, but when you do, you are getting much stronger and can hold your head up so high to look at things!
~ You also sat up without my help for the first time. You don't last very long, but you're learning and you can't wait to be able to do it on your own. When you are laying down, I can see your little stomach muscles trying so hard to get you back up.. especially in the bathtub!
~ You are so curious about everything around you. So much so that it's getting hard to give you your bottle because it seems like you just cannot miss anything that may happen! You look around everywhere and drool all of your milk out.
~ You are taking three naps a day. The first one is about an hour and 1/2 after you wake up. Then another one in the morning and afternoon. I can very easily tell when you are tired now and you are usually able to put yourself to sleep within 10 minutes!
~You love your exersaucer and have figured out how to work almost all of the toys on there. We love to see you figure things out every day and we are both convinced that you are the smartest baby ever. It's so much fun to see you learn.
~ You have finally started to enjoy it when we read to you, so I've made that part of our daily routine. We lay on your bedroom floor together and read. You coo a lot while I'm reading to you and try to eat the book.
~ Speaking of eating... you've also discovered your feet. You love to grab onto them and try to eat your cute little toes :)
~ Your giggle is contagious and I could sit and listen to you laugh all day. You do laugh a lot, but you have started this screeching thing. You do this high pitched screech throughout a lot of the day. It's not an unhappy thing though, I guess you just can't contain your excitement!!
~ You do still like your TV and though I won't allow you to watch too much.. you do enjoy Dora the Explorer, Go Diego Go, and The Backyardigans (really you would watch anything I'd put you in front of.. those are just my favorites actually)
I can't believe that you have been with us for 5 months. 5 months. I don't know how, but it seems like time has flown by and has taken it's sweet time all at once. Either way, I do know that they have been the best 5 months of my life.
I sit here typing this as you are entertaining yourself on the floor. You are having such a great time on your playmat. I don't think you have stop squealing and talking to your toys for the past 1/2 hour. You are so full of joy and I love seeing life through your eyes! You smile all of the time! At all of your toys. At every single person you meet. Especially at other babies and kids. I think you are going to be Mr. Social Butterfly as soon as you are able!
You are growing like a weed and I just want to slow. down. time. Slow it wayyyy down. I am so thankful that I am able to spend every day with you so I don't have to miss one little thing. I love your daddy even more so for allowing us this time together!
Your stats:
~ At 5 months old, you are wearing 6 month clothing and they are getting a little snug on you. If feels like I am always rearranging your clothes because you grow out of everything so quickly. You are still in size 3 diapers though.
~ You still take a 6 oz bottle every three hours during the day. Plus, you have rice cereal late morning or for lunch and a veggie around your last bottle for the day. So far all you have had is green beans and peas. You will eat both of them, but I wouldn't go as far as to say that you love them! We are going to try feeding you a mashed up guacamole this weekend!
~ You sleep through the night for 12 to 13 hours at a time. 6pm to anywhere from 6-7 the next morning. I would like to change your bedtime, however, to a little later. Your daddy would like to see you for more than just an hour a day and you also put a bit of a damper on our social life ;)
~ You had two over night stays with a babysitter this month!! You slept over at Mrs. Sue and Mr. Chris's house twice while we went to two different Military balls! We had a lot of fun, but I sure did miss you!
~ You are a pro at rolling over from your tummy to your back. We can't seem to keep you on your tummy at all now, but when you do, you are getting much stronger and can hold your head up so high to look at things!
~ You also sat up without my help for the first time. You don't last very long, but you're learning and you can't wait to be able to do it on your own. When you are laying down, I can see your little stomach muscles trying so hard to get you back up.. especially in the bathtub!
~ You are so curious about everything around you. So much so that it's getting hard to give you your bottle because it seems like you just cannot miss anything that may happen! You look around everywhere and drool all of your milk out.
~ You are taking three naps a day. The first one is about an hour and 1/2 after you wake up. Then another one in the morning and afternoon. I can very easily tell when you are tired now and you are usually able to put yourself to sleep within 10 minutes!
~You love your exersaucer and have figured out how to work almost all of the toys on there. We love to see you figure things out every day and we are both convinced that you are the smartest baby ever. It's so much fun to see you learn.
~ You have finally started to enjoy it when we read to you, so I've made that part of our daily routine. We lay on your bedroom floor together and read. You coo a lot while I'm reading to you and try to eat the book.
~ Speaking of eating... you've also discovered your feet. You love to grab onto them and try to eat your cute little toes :)
~ Your giggle is contagious and I could sit and listen to you laugh all day. You do laugh a lot, but you have started this screeching thing. You do this high pitched screech throughout a lot of the day. It's not an unhappy thing though, I guess you just can't contain your excitement!!
~ You do still like your TV and though I won't allow you to watch too much.. you do enjoy Dora the Explorer, Go Diego Go, and The Backyardigans (really you would watch anything I'd put you in front of.. those are just my favorites actually)
We love you more and more each and every day. I think you are just perfect the way you are.. every one of your little features... your sweet, happy, outgoing little personality.. everything! God truly blessed us when he gave you to us!
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| Starting to take more than one take! Little wiggle worm |
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| 4 months |
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