May 25, 2010

Where do I begin???

Let's just say up front that this post will be a tad bit scattered all over the place!

First things first ~ we ARE NOT homeless anymore! We found the cutest little house thanks to my before mentioned saving grace here, Jennifer. Long, semi-confusing story, but basically she had some inside information on this house that was just put back up for rent and we scooped it up before a For Rent sign could even be put out. It's perfect. I knew it when there was a baby boy's nursery already there and "God bless this home" was inscribed on the back "patio" concrete area. We love it!

The movers were not so perfect this time. First of all, when they got here with our stuff, they flat out told me (a 6 month pregnant lady) that they would not unpack our stuff. That it wasn't their policy. I know, I know, y'all have all told me otherwise, but I'm still new at this game. I believed them, thinking that maybe some companies really can't unpack. I all too often believe that people are nothing but good and the thought never crossed my mind that they could be just trying to get out of it. Trey was furious!
Also, they didn't use wardrobe boxes this time so all of his uniforms and suits are currently hanging trying to de-wrinkle themselves. One of my favorite frames broke. And his dumbbells and the plunger disappeared. Grrrrr... I know things could have been worse, but lets just say we won't be using them again!

I'm getting to know the area a little better now. I'm really going to love it once I know where everything is.... I can't wait to have people visit us here! I have to admit... I was having a very hard time with this move. I'm not sure what it was.. if the area overwhelmed me, it seems more real to me because I know it's more than just a few months, being yet another hour away from my family, not having that core group of friends we had in Oklahoma, or just plain pregnancy hormones... but I was really sad and upset for a while there. It's getting better, but there were tears every day. Just some MAJOR homesickness going on really. Like I said, it's not quite as bad now, but I'm not going to lie and say everything is perfect. I do like it here, but I'm having some good and bad days. I know that's normal, but I have more bad days than I'd like. I'm sure it'll just take some time!
That is us driving on I-10, the major highway around here. The picture doesn't do it justice, but that whole area you're looking at? Juarez, Mexico. That's how close we are. You can actually see the river and the gate, but like I said, crappy picture!

We still don't have Internet service, nor do we have a washer and dryer yet. Sooo, I'm over at Jenn's apartment washing close and catching up on the Internet world. Again, I don't know what I'd do without her!! We'll have Internet starting on the 28th and a washer and dryer and soon as hubs gets that DLA money!

I know I said I'd catch up on blogs last week... buuutt I just looked at my google reader and saw that there are 252 for me to "catch up" on. I quickly got on Facebook instead...

I found my way to the hospital and now know where to go for all of my appointments :) They are very friendly. The hospital is huge, but surprisingly easy to maneuver around in. Yesterday I was showed around to every place in there that I could possibly need to go to. They gave me a motion sickness prescription because..
in the midst of this all, I'm jumping on a plane to Massachusetts tomorrow for my dear friend's wedding!! The planes on my way home to SC and back made me excruciatingly ill, so hopefully these pills will help out quite a bit!

My mum has been bugging and bugging me to do a pregnancy post. I'm too scatter-brained to do a full one, but here is a little update:

I'm 26 weeks pregnant and Baby Drew is now measuring to be around a full 2 pounds!

I feel him moving around more and more and it never fails to put a smile on my face.. Trey's too. They kicks and punches are stronger. He will actually respond most of the time now if you press on my belly.. usually he'll push back. That is beyond cool. I can also feel him squirming around in there.

When I wake up in the morning, it's almost like I can feel where he's snuggled up in a little ball and it's always in the same place. I think it's the sweetest thing ever.

I talk to him more and more and it's beginning to feel a little less strange.

It's getting a little harder to move around freely. My belly is starting to get in the way and it's harder to get up out of certain positions. We take walks almost every night, and I am having to slow down a bit. I loose my breath quite often and I'm seeing my first sign of *gasp* tiny little stretch marks.

I'm up and down with whether or not I'm ready for him to be here. I'm petrified and ecstatic all at the same time. On one hand, I can't wait to see what he looks like.. to hold his tiny little body in my arms, to kiss him all over constantly, and to see what this does to Trey. On the other hand.. WOW!! I'm going to be a mum. We're going to bring him home from that hospital and it's going to be real. I'm going to be responsible for keeping him alive. What if I can't feed him right? How will I know if he's getting enough food? Am I going to be a nervous wreck while he's sleeping, checking on him every 5 minutes to make sure he's still breathing? How am I going to shop with him and what if he's hungry while I'm out?

I have selfish thoughts as well that I'm embarrassed to admit, but I like to keep it real. Am I going to miss it being just Trey and I? It's going to be a pain in the rear to pack up everything to go out anywhere.. nothing will be this easy anymore. We'll base every decision we make around him. I'm sure these thoughts go away and I'm sure it's very normal. I know when I see that little boy, it's going to change my life... for the better and none of this stuff will matter to me anymore!

26 week belly shot :)

I think that's enough information overload for now! I'll be back next week with regular posting again :) Happy Memorial Day everyone!!

May 14, 2010

We made it?

Welp, we're here in El Paso.. do we want the positives or the negatives first? Negatives? Good idea... let's get that crap out of the way.

Not so Good
1. It's scary.
This is a big darn city! I don't know how to drive in this traffic anymore first of all! These people are crazy. And I'm not sure I'll ever figure out my way around.. so many loops! Second of all... we are ridiculously close to Juarez, Mexico. Can you even imagine how much I'd freak out if I accidentally got the the line to cross over there??? My palms sweat and heart palpitates every time I get into the car.
2. We're homeless.
There's an insane amount of people coming into this area apparently. We won't get on post housing for like a year. When we asked for help finding off post housing they basically told us good luck with that. The prices of homes are actually being gauged because they know there's such a high demand. Because of that we are either going to be completely settling for something we're not crazy about AT ALL (hello upstairs apartment.. again) or getting something a little out of our price range and living dangerously close to living in poverty level. What to do, what to do?
3. I'm EXTREMELY homesick right now.
Maybe due to the fact that we're now another hour behind home and that makes me feel very far away? Or maybe just because we feel so lost right now? Or could be hormones.. either way... I miss my mommy.

Plus sides.. shall we?
1. This place *for the most part* is BEA-U-TIFUL!!!
I have a sneaking suspicion that once we do actually find a place and I can get my little routine down pat, I'm going to l-o-v-e it. The Franklin mountains are a beautiful view to see from just about any point. The palm trees make me feel exotic. I love all the stucco buildings. Gorgeous.
2. Jennifer has been my saving grace.
God love her. Once we get settled I'm going to owe her my life. We've been her little pet project all week, and she's helped so much! It's been wonderful to have a familiar face here!
3. Pretty much anything we could possibly need is 10-15 minutes away.
If we do live in that decent apartment, hello Target, you'll be right down the street from me. Let's just ignore, for now, the fact that we won't be able to afford to take advantage of any of these lovely places.

That's all for now.
I'm way behind on blogs. Trust me, I'll have plenty of time to catch up and comment away while Trey is doing in-processing all next week. I'm not quite ready to put my big girl panties on and venture out by myself just yet.

Have a great weekend!

May 11, 2010

Busy Busy Busy

I tried to make this post much, much more interesting by uploading pics to give you mental images.. but blogger is not cooperating today.. sorry!

I feel like since I've last been on here that my life has been one big whirlwind of chaos. I didn't think I'd be doing a post until we actually got to our new home, but here I sit, waiting for the movers, with nothing to entertain me except interenet.. sooooo...

My vacation home was everything I expected it to be. I soaked up every.single.minute I could with my family. I was especially clingy to my mum, which we chalked up to me being on my way to becoming a mummy. We were able to spend so much quality time together, but for me, the whole time it was a little bittersweet. I tried to enjoy every moment and really, I did... but it got more and more hard towards the end. All I could think about was the fact that the next time I see my parents, I'm going to have a BABY. I'm going to be a parent myself. I was scared, honestly and feeling a little more than vulnerable. The weather was beautiful the entire week. I spent an endless amount of time on their beautiful and infamous deck. (seriously.. the only thing that could make it better would be a beach next to it with waves crashing lightly onto our feet). Got to see four of my little brother's baseball games, two or three of which he pitched in. Got pedi's and mani's with the girls. Had dinner one night with some great girlfriends of mine. And really.. just spent a lot of down time with the fam.

The shower... it was perfect! They put so much work into throwing this for us and I feel extremely lucky to have these people in our lives. I can't wait for Andrew to meet all of these people that love him so much already. One room in my parents house is fully covered with baby stuff ready to be shipped to us!

The only things I can complain about are:
1. small planes aren't fun for pregnant bellies. Holy cold sweat and queasiness. Just sayin..
2. I was extremely emotional the entire time. Like cried just about every day, emotional.
3. I now miss my family even more so..
4. It's hard to see everyone you want to see when you only have a limited amount of time with your family. I know my time with them is limited now, and honestly.. when I am home.. I can't be pried away from their presense. I may have upset some people, but hopefully they understand.

But we will see them soon when they fly out to El Paso to see baby Drew <3>

Sidenote: packers are here and same as last time.. kinda awkward

Remember those birds I've been complaining about for like the past month? The awful, squaking at all hours, severely annoying birds? I feel horrible now. I walked to my car yesterday and saw their babies dead on the sidewalk. The strong winds must of knocked them down and it was the saddest and slightly grossest thing I've seen in a while.

I can't wait to get to El Paso! I'm ready for a change, even if I am a tad bit nervous and a little scared. It'll be nice to be able to "settle" in somewhere. I know it'll only be for a couple of years, but compared to this move where we knew it would only be a couple of months... I'd call it settling :)