Thank you very much for all the sweet comments, prayers, and virtual hugs :)
Unfortunately we're going to need a lot more where that came from. The doctor called all my aunts in together for a talk with my grandmother.. the spots he saw on her lungs that he thought was pneumonia are in fact spots from lung cancer. She's at a smaller hospital right now, but is going to UMass soon to see how bad it is. If it's not so bad yet, they will give her as much chemo as she can handle, which she is okay with. This will give her another year if that's the case. If it's too bad, they will just let it run it's course. She doesn't want to get into having any surgeries and I can't say that I blame her.
I'm waiting for the tears to come, but they really haven't yet. I'm actually more angry than anything. Not at her, just the situation. I'm extremely passionate about smoking. I hate it and always have. Because of her. Smoking robbed her of a quality life for so many years and is now going to be the end of it as well. It just frustrates me. It breaks my heart to know she's in so much pain. And to hear my mom so upset. I can't image how hard it would be to be 900 miles away from your mother when you get news like this. I know it kills her which in turn kills me. I rambling now so I'm going to stop here. So much I want to say.. but I really don't know how.