July 29, 2009


Screw it ~ I'm sweating like a banchie. And I've honestly spent the whole night sobbing tearing up over it. I feel like this little thing called life is seriously ganging up on me. If you're in no mood for a pity party, the exit is to your upper right hand corner ;)

I woke up this morning with the vague feeling that I was a little more toasty than usual during the night. While straightening my hair and panting from heat exhaustion, I knew the worst had happened. My AC went out. Again. Got to work and called my little AC man and he said he'd be out to look at it late afternoon. I'm pretty sure I hit my breaking point tonight after getting home and realizing when I walked into the safari jungle that he never did make it out. And all I kept hearing in my head was him making the calculated guess that I'd probably have to replace it since it's so old. Really? We can't rig it for a bit and let it be someone else's problem? I joke. Kinda. Who has money sitting around to install a new AC??? Not I! I should though. Which brought on a whole new set of sobs. Trey's been gone since February. My main responsibilities were paying bills and building our savings up. I tried. I really did. But I swear it's just been one thing or another that has made me spend money in our savings right after I built it up. Every.Time. Add on the pressure of getting Daisy (I know.. my choice and I have no regrets), hoping and praying we sell our house and that we actually make money off of it, moving... Ahhhhh... I've been able to keep a pretty cool head.. but tonight it felt like the world was crashing on my shoulders and I could hardly stand to keep breathing.

I am a little more calm now though. Calm, not cool. It's still sweltering hot. For two reasons:

1. my realtor called to let me know she is showing my house to someone tomorrow that seams interested in renting it. Scary, but I'm a little bit okay with making some extra money every month.
2. AC man just called. Gotta love an AC man that calls at 9:45 at night to let you know how sorry he is and that he'll be there at 7:30. I'll love him even more if he doesn't make me buy a whole new unit.

Thank you so so so much for all of your comments on my last post. Y'all are seriously my backbone. I hope that's not very pathetic of me to say. Because it's true :) I'd probably be certifiably insane without y'all.
Trey is doing better. They did send him to HHC today but his spirits are way up. He read parts in the book of Job last night in the Bible... seriously?

That's only a little something I've been praying for for years. We'll save that for another post though.

I'm gone until Monday!! Off to visit the fam in Massachusetts. Hopefully i'll be able to squash some of these worries of mine while i'm up there, but knowing me, doubtful. I know i'm usually very optimistic and to my defense a little PMS may or may not have something to do with this mental breakdown. We're all entitled to a few though right??

Ohhhhhh how could I forget??? One of my favorite bloggie buddies, Crazy Shenanigans, gave me this sweet sweet award today:

It made me smile through all those tears!! Thanks girl!


Crazy Shenanigans said...

You're welcome. I am sorry to hear though that you've had a rough day. The AC went out the other day and I prayed for a good hour that it would come back on later and thankfully it did!

Have a great time in Mass!! When you get back I'll be leaving for PA!

Mrs R said...

Booh!!! I hope your AC gets fixed and is inexpensive.

Heather said...

Oh, honey! No AC in this heat?! I'd be crying too! Bless your heart!

I hope it gets fixed today and I hope everything else irons itself out soon too. Know that you have a TON of people praying for you and wishing you nothing but the best!!

Have fun with your family, and I hope you return to a cool house! :)

Mrs. G.I Joe said...

OMG SOOO SORRY that I missed the post below:( Trey is going to do great on the next one though! But thats the Army for you...Not everything goes smoothly. It certinaly hasn't been that way for Robert, but like your husband is doing, he's picked himself up and kept on trucking! I hope you get good news from the AC guy! Keep up that wonderful smile and all will be wonderful once again, you'll see:)

Ashleigh said...

you will TOTALLY feel better after you visit your fam :) they will make you laugh so much, you will forget you even had worries...and you know its true!!

Have fun, and Ill see you on the 8th!

Brittany said...

OMG hun I would be crying to... actually I am because I don't have air and it is SOOO hot! Anyways I am glad that he is in better spirits! Stay Strong!!

Carrie said...

Oh, wow. That's one terrifying day. :/ But no fears, it'll pass soon enough. Things will work out one way or another. They always do. Stay brave, girl!