I just finished watching the latest episode of Intervention about twins who had a problem with anorexia. I have just about nothing going on in my own life to blog about so I'll share my thoughts about this episode.. because there were many.
It got me thinking about being a parent. It's so scary. The parents on the show were immigrants from Poland. They came here with 2 suitcases and didn't speak a lick of English. They worked there asses off (mom at McDonald's, dad at a wood working shop) and after just 2 years bought a house and started a family. Their three kids had a great life growing up. Seems like they were a tight knit family and the girls got to do any activity they wanted to (karate, sports, etc.). At one point in the show, Mom and Dad were sitting at a table, looking at pictures, and the dad was just a sobbing mess remembering all the good times. He made the comment that he thought he had done everything perfectly which brings me to my point. You raise your children with the best of intentions and the highest of hopes. And you very well may do everything "perfectly". But that doesn't necessarily mean you can control the outcome. What if you have to stand by at some point and watch your child/children screw up their lives seriously and there was nothing you could do about it. It must have been so painful for them to sit back and watch their twin daughters slowly kill themselves.
Secondly, I was trying to understand the actual disease. I don't know anyone personally who has gone through this. How does it start? Just a normal person that wants to lose a little weight and it gets out of control? Or is there something a little off mentally to begin with? I understand that once a person hasn't had any food for a certain amount of time, your brain is making you think you can literally not eat, but how does it even get to that point. What in that persons head makes them look in the mirror and think they are fat when they are 86 lbs? Did that person every have a love affair with food like I do? I think not. I could never give it up.
There's a show that comes on after Intervention called Obsession. I think it's mostly about people with OCD and the like. I've yet to allow myself to watch it. I don't have an ounce of OCD in my body (aside from my night time rituals) but I do have a little problem with hypochondria. I'm scared I'll make myself believe I have a problem if I watch that show.