November 10, 2009

'Tis the time of the month

I have been soooo emotional today! I'm debating going to bed so nothing else makes me cry, but then I wouldn't be able to watch SYTYCD. So help me God, if there's any routines like last week's fear routine, I'm turning it off and crawling under the sheets!

example #1
I was trained on the phones today at the food bank. I loved doing that, but did hear one story that just broke my heart. I don't want to get into the full story, but it was a mother who was trying her best just to be the mom we all want and expect to be. While telling me her story I could hear her voice start to crack as she fought the tears, but she lost all control as the flood gates opened. It was all could do not to sit there and cry with her.

example #2
I called my mom afterwards wanting to talk about it, but she couldn't talk at the moment. That is all. I still didn't cry at that moment but was pathetically pretty dern close. *don't feel bad mum. you clearly did nothing to bring that on... i blame it on my insanity* But she did call back 5 minutes later so all was good until....

example #3
I got home and watched the coverage on the Ft. Hood memorial. OH.My.God. I don't remember the last time I cried so hard. Between the last roll call and hearing the silence after every other soldier's name was called, hearing Taps being played, and seeing the families barely able to walk through their grief as they said their goodbyes... i couldn't contain myself. I just pray and pray for them.. that they are comforted as much as possible.

There have been other little things, but I already can't remember what they are. I'm sure they were very silly reasons. Off to go enjoy one of those Betty Crocker Warm Delight things. The chocolate fudge cookie one. With Vanilla Ice Cream on top. Full fledged fatty girl version of everything. Mmmhmmmm... judge me. I don't care.

Update:
I also cried when I tried bring all 10000 bags of groceries in by myself and one of the bags split.. the jar of spaghetti sauce crashes below and all of a sudden there's broken glass everywhere (I totally just rapped that like P.Diddy) and sauce splattered all over me.
The End.

6 comments:

Brandi said...

: ( Your day makes ME want to cry. Huuugs. It always breaks my hearts when Moms struggle so hard when they are single.

Kate said...

My goodness Girl - you had quite the day. You need some "me" time, window shopping or something fun...

You are a great person for listening to people's stories - there is so much struggle going on right now, you, on the other end of the phone, did more than you know for that woman.

Have a glass of wine and hope that tomorrow is a better day!

JG said...

I'm sorry! I agree with Kate, listening to that woman on the phone I'm sure did her much good. I've had some grocery episodes like that. It stinks...literally...

Julie said...

That was quite the day :( I hope today is much better for you. Good for you for being there to listen to that women's story. So many hurting people in our world :(

Steph said...

Hope today is a better day for you! I think we all have days were we just want to lay in bed and cry.

The Neffs said...

You sweet girl. Sorry you had such a tough, sad day. I know what you mean some days just feel like that where you just get so frustrated I could just burst into tears. I pray todays a better day. Hugs, Ginger