August 11, 2009

Hardest Decision EVER

Ugghhhh... I have been a crying fool for the past 3 days. I have prayed and prayed about this decision and the answer to that prayer literally came knocking on my door tonight.

My neighbors have been taking care of Daisy while I'm at work. The mom and daughter, Catherine. Catherine is about 13. The mom was at my door and came in for a bit. she wanted to be sure that I was really okay with the fact that they sometimes brought Dais over they're house to play with their dog Roscoe. I told her it was more than okay and it in fact made me feel much better about leaving in the morning. She proceeded to tell me how ever since their small dog, Scout, passed away Roscoe has been so depressed. Every since Daisy has been coming around it's just lifted Roscoe's spirits up. I guess he is really gentle with her and they are great together. Scout was her son's dog so she also told her that having Daisy around has made her mind up that she wants to buy her son another small dog. At this point the tears starting flowing from my eyes.

You see, I've been struggling for the past three days over whether or not I made the right decision with getting Daisy. I truly love her with my entire heart and this is extremely heart breaking for me, but I really don't think my timing was very good. The days of my paychecks coming in are dwindling. Our house still hasn't sold. When we move, we are going to be good to feed ourselves. I've had one emergency after the other which has dwindled our emergency fund to almost zilch. I'm so stressed out over that. Little dog expenses add up. Between the vet visits and constant grooming, and paying for a house we won't be living in, I was really starting to worry. I also received news today that my grandmother took another turn for the worse. She's back in the hospital and called the Priest in to be with her today. That got me thinking about the costs of flying places and boarding her to do so. And to be honest, I didn't realize how much time she would take up, so there are some selfish reasons in there as well that I was doubting this. I'm seriously late on paying a couple bills because I don't know how to half ass anything. I feel so bad for leaving her all day, that by the time I get home I feel like she has to have 100% of my attention all night long.

So I've cried and cried and prayed and prayed and the answer to that prayer came to me I believe. It's going to be the hardest thing I've every had to do, but I've decided to hand her over to my neighbor. They love her so so much. They have the experience to raise her and train her right. There will be people home with her all day. As much as I will be in despair for who knows how long missing her, I know she will be going to a great home. Can't ask for much more than that. My head knows that, but my heart is pitching a fit right now!

14 comments:

d.a.r. said...

What a tough decision, but it really sounds like you are making the right one for both you and Daisy. Hang in there sweets.

Ashleigh said...

aw Jess :( Im so sad for you, but with hearing all your reasoning...it sounds like the right thing right now.

yes, puppies take up soooooo much time and money. and it sounds like its just not a great time.

also sounds like she will have a fantastic home, with a friend and all.

good luck with your decision, and if you ever need some doggy lovin...youre more than welcome to come get mauled by my monster dog :)

KLC said...

Aww I can only imagine how hard this must be for you. Did you discuss it with your husband? I admire you for doing what is best for Daisy even though it breaks your heart!

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Aw, I know how much you love that dog but if it's going to be the best thing then it's the right thing to do. I'm sure it'll all be alright in the end.

JG said...

I'm so sorry, but it sounds like you are really doing the unselfish thing by letting a family who needs Daisy have the chance to love her. I know of other dog owners who are in similar situations to yours re: schedule and finance, but are keeping their dog rather than giving it up for the better of the dog. It reminds me of Solomon splitting the baby - it's real love to put her (and the other family's) needs above your own. Your beautiful character is showing!

Brittany said...

As hard as it is I think you are doing a truly amazing thing by giving Daisy a GREAT home! Stay strong hun!

Mrs R said...

Awww... this is so unselfish of you. I'm sure the new family will give her all the love and attention she needs.

You are right. Its just bad timing. I'm sure someday it will all work out and you can get a furry little baby again.

Heather said...

Awwww- honey, I'm sorry. I know it must be tough to give up that precious little thing. BUT I'm so glad that she's going to a good home with sweet, loving people and another dog to keep her company. :)

lola said...

Wow, that's a really tough situation, but I think you're doing the right thing.

New Girl on Post said...

Awww....I know you are sad, but I think this might be the right decision for you and Daisy. At least you know she's going to a good home and won't be in a shelter somewhere.

Mrs. G.I Joe said...

Awe I'm sorry girl:( RObert and I came *this* close to handing Bella over too. For the reason thatw e thought our timing might have been off too...Me working all the time and Robert as well...I cried and cried too, but in our case the answer came in keeping her...They *the pound* was going to put her down THAT DAY! It seemed like a sign to both Robert and I. We decided to that keeping her was best because some love was better then no love. But each situation is different and if daisy is happy there and you fore see problems down the road in keeping her, then I think your making the right choice:) Sorry girl...IT sounds like it might be for the best though...

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GUAMtastic said...

Sorry friend!! BUT Daisy is going to to be one happy camper. I had a little terrier for 3 weeks about 4 years ago and I loved that dog to pieces, but had to give her up - was working too many hours to be fair to the dog, and it was the best decision I've made! Hang in there!!

Diva Ma @ Mommy Fabulous said...

I praise you for being able to make such a decision. I know how hard it has to be to turn over a pet that is like a family member. Hang in there. Things will get better!