March 29, 2009

Getting back in the swing of things

This is so intimidating. I haven't came on in so long it feels like. At first I didn't because I just had nothing new or positive to blog about. Then it just got more and more overwhelming.. where do you even start? *Confession* I even thought about getting rid of this altogether, but I never could quite bring myself to do that. I knew I'd regret it anyways and I'm way to involved in some of your lives at this point. In a totally non-creepy way.
I've had a good couple of weeks. Came up from that pathetic slump of depression I was in and feel like I'm getting used to things. I'm sure that was the first of many more meltdowns to come, but for now all is good :)
I'm defininately becoming more independent. I feel myself becoming less of a scardy cat (you know.. not so much scared of the dark, or doing things on my own, or killing bugs, or sleeping alone at night). I haven't cried in a long time (or what feels like a long time) and I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I mean I made it through the first whole month which I never thought would end! Graduation is starting to feel like it is right around the corner (even though he leaves for 12 more weeks after that.. we won't go there yet)

I've been such a debbie downer lately, I thought I'd make a list of everything that makes me happy:
the fact that my mother has facebook now
lunch with my brother yesterday, just him and I
Macaroni and Cheese
Loosing Weight
Steeplechase last weekend (even though I cooked myself pretty badly) with my SIL
seeing my relationship with my SIL strengthen to more than it's ever been
my work friends that make me laugh and smile
friends that are up for those serious, full-blown sobbing chats at whatever time of day.. or night
getting a good run in at the gym and the feeling I have after that
my favorite tv shows
letters from Trey

On seperate notes, here are a few things I'm looking forward to:
Dinner date with an old friend and catching up
Hilton Head next weekend
Easter with my fam the next weekend
middle of the week "little black dress party" for my SIL's bday
Walking for Project Pet that weekend
My cousin hopefully coming to visit from Mass the next weekend
And then 2 more weekends from that seeing my amazing husband for Family Day on the 7th and graduation on the 8th.

Which leads me to my next thought. What am I going to wear to both of those days???? Any thoughts? I'd like to get one of those "my husband rocks" tank tops to wear for family day. and then maybe a sundress for graduation.. we'll see.


Heather said...

I've been wondering how you were doing. Glad to hear that you're making it. :)
Hang in there. I know it's tough, but you seem to be handling it wonderfully. And think about how amazing it's going to feel in a couple of weeks when you get to see Trey!!

KLC said...

Welcome back, I was wondering what happened to you! I'm so glad to hear you are doing well :)

Anonymous said...

It's about time! Love, Mom!

Pink, Green, and Southern said...

Were you possibly at the Aiken Steeplechase?!?! We could have walked right by each other and not even known it.

I'm glad you are back...I love reading your blog!